Im Completely Devastated

Actually if you read my posts youll see that i do take responsibility for my actions. Yes i lost my friends. Also you havent met my ex. She would make the pope take a swing at her. She is pure evil. And also realize that /b/ is the *&^%&* of the internet. What may be distirbing to others isnt to me. But still that is my fault i shouldnt of posted that. And yes i have come to terms with my life. I took more than enough from her. I am dealing with fallout that is unimaginable. I get to watch as everybody around me is enjoying themselves while im left in the gutter. One thing i will not tolerate is having somebody that i dont even know thinking that im BAWW and being irresponsible.

I wont even get into it then.

Get into what. I think that its obvious by posting here that i want to get help and believe it or not help others.

As the mother of two sons that are 25 & 20 - they have been brought up knowing that they are never hit a female - NEVER - and the only exception to this rule would be if she came at them with a knife or gun as to hurt/kill them.

Fair Fights do not take place between a male and a female... no matter what side of the fence you are on.

Have you cheeked with your counselor or primary doctor about locating an Anger Management Support Group... you could probably even call the local poilce department for a referral.

Youre asking me to call the cops to turn myself in. . She never pressed charges. This fight that happened between us happened months ago. The physical part at least. And i dont have anger problems. If you knew me IRL then you would of said I am one of the most cool and collective people youve met. And also what if they spit in your face and then slap it. Do you expect any man to just take that

Burbitine....

Since you have been on PC, most of your original posts include either physically or emotionally/verbally violent depictions of fights and arguments that you have with people. You post them, and they offend people, and they get edited because they are against guidelines. Then you say that you don't have any anger issues, which is what I would expect you to say....BUT....you do have anger issues. For sure.

You ask for help in your posts and a lot of people do their best to offer you good suggestions and ways that you could help yourself and your situation. With mostly everything that everyone says though, you have a comeback or a reason why you can't do it.

Some one said to call your local police department and ask if they could give you a referral to an anger management program to help you cope with your anger so it doesn't get out of control. Your response was that they were asking you to turn yourself in and that you don't have anger problems.

I, personally, do not know what to offer you anymore. Anything I say or suggest, you have an excuse or reason why you can't/won't do it. In fact, this happens with everyone here.

So many folks here are using their energy to support you, yet your actions and responses say that you do not really want that support.

In my honest opinion, I think that you like to talk about yourself. I think you like to brag about all the mean and abusive stuff you do because you find some sort of thrill talking about your abusive behavior on a support site that has a lot of people who have at one time or another been victimized by that same type of abuse. What is more fun for a person who displays narcissistic and anti-social tendencies than boasting about their abusive behaviors and getting abuse survivors to support him.

It seems like no matter what any of us say, you still think of reasons why you do not have to take accountability for your actions and behaviors. If all you are going to do is shoot everyone down that tries to help you, then that to me says you really don't want the help, as you are not ready yet to change.

I am just wondering how long people are actually going to continue to support you when it is evident your are, at this time, not willing or wanting to change.

You can't control others behaviors and actions. You can only control your own.

1. Elysium Thank You for your honest down to earth opinion of the situation I apprecitate it. Here is my response to that.
One how could I be Anti-Social if i get along with the vast majority of people and up until i small time back had a good number of friends, I do not mean to shoot down at people . It's well my way of sealing of the vulnerbility. Think of it im typing text onto a screen with a keyboard. That is what it is text. You take it at face value. I admit that i saw police and then thought turn myself in My mistake. I apoligize. Some people when they are hurting seal themselves from others I fire randomly. Once again thank you for the direct honesty, And yes I believe that i am a narcissist. On that test i scored a 35. Celeberities score around 18 so yes it is pretty obvious that i have some kind of problem with USI. I apoligize i am trying to fix myself. The path im going on leads straight to hell and im sliding right towards the gates. (This probally will get edited.) I ask for help dosent mean that ALL hope is lost

Elysium - you took the words right out of my mouth. I had that written and then changed it to say I wasn't going to get into it because I knew it would only cause backlash. It sounds like how I used to act when I was 16 before I grew up and realized it isn't "cool" to be rough and get into fights and be a total jerk.

Please see below links for a better understanding.

And please note...I'm not attempting to make a diagnostic statement here. I am merely stating that I see/hear a lot of these symptoms/traits in your posts.

If you have concerns, please speak with your Therapist/Doctor.

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/antisocial

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/ant...CTION=symptoms

Thank you for the advice. Ill finish this post later but i before i go i want to thank all of you

Anyway that stuff on cognitive disorders was very helpful thank you.