i have many problems in the relationship i am in but, i would just like to talk about 1 of them.i see a pattern.i am 37 but have only had two real relationships.i met my ex-husband when i was 12.after 20+years and 3 children we separated(VERY BAD BREAKUP).i lost it.2 months later i met the man i have been with for 41/2 years.in both relationships it was fun at first.but it was very early in both relationships that i felt i would not be happy with this person.we differ in opinions to much.but i continued to stay.in my marriage i got severely insecure,to the point where i could barely function with constant thoughts of not being good enough.my weight skyrocketed.when the marriage fell apart so did i.i lost ALOT of weight and was actually too small.now,in my current relationship i am gaining and am severely depressed,i cannot leave the house without feeling ugly.i have always been told i am pretty,but if they could see under the clothing im sure they would change their mind...anyway sorry,i beginning to feel really stupid and have learned if i dont post quickly delete so thanks for listening
__________________
 L
Last edited by QUEEN OF WANDS; May 30, 2010 at 10:52 AM.
|