[UCLAFan]

i have been hurt a lot the last 5 to10 years or so.plus i don't like the people in the area i have lived for 17 years now.i have cut people out of me life for mistreating me.some treated me badly out of jealousy.some treated me badly because i would not date them or have sex with them.most of the time i don't want to bother being around other people.but at times i feel lonely and wish i had friends and a boyfriend.but i been hurt by so many people that i now have issues trusting people.i have trusted people in the past and got burned.i could write a dang book on bad relationships.so i have mixed feelings.i want friends but then i also don't want friends.the main reason i don't want friends is because i'm scared of being hurt again.

[Perna]

I would work in therapy to learn more about how I respond to people, find out why all people, relationships, friends, etc. end badly for me. When the odds get that out of whack, I start doubting that the problem lies with others but maybe there's something I don't understand about myself.

There are pros and cons to everything. Isolation and loneliness are very unhealthy. If you do not risk trying to find a friend, how likely is it someone will come looking for you?

[UCLAFan]

the only time i am around people this time of year is at baseball games.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

I agree you should go through therapy for ths; counselling will assist you to come to terms with how you feel & why you feel it.

don't give up and remember if you look in the gutter you will find trash, if you look in a garden you will find a flower,

Rhian

Wishing you the best, UCLAFan.

[UCLAFan]

i went through counseling for 3 years.but now where i live the state no longer pays for it.

[sunflower227]

Sometimes the best investment is in your health.