[Sakurabrahm]

My dad always goes berserk every time I mess up. He yells and says that I'm stupid, don't deserve to go to college, and that I'm eve and will probably die because of my stupidity. I know that I've messed up about loosing important papers, forgetting assignment in high school, etc. but he doesn't have to act like I'm a baby and ridicule everyhing I do. To make matters worse, I'm disabled and can't walk and he's the one that helps me do things like going to the bathroom. I love him so much that his words hurt deeply and make me feel like I shouldn't exist. I can't leave him as I'm dependent on his help but he scares me when het gets this angry. Don't most peoplemake mistakes like mine once in a while? So why does it make me a horrible person when I already know I screwed up?

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hello Sakuabrahm,

Welcome to PC. It's a sad that your dad is to be abusive toward you. He really shouldn't be that way.

You are not dependent on your father you can have home care help from a disability carer, but that may not suit you.

But I think you need an advocate as someone to speak on your behalf to your dad and support you in everyday choices and decisions while handling your daily relationships including school or work if need be.

Be assured though that you will receive ongoing emotional support from us and we'll do what we can in that regard,

Rhiannon

[Jenn1fer82]

I agree with the first post. Because you're disabled there are many services that you can apply for that can help you be more independent financially and medically. I'm from Cali and I am also disabled and I was able to be approved for many different thing so the help is out there. You're in school so talk to a counselor and they can tell you many different services out there. You may feel very alone and confused why would your father treat you this way but be strong and believe that your life can be full of great things without your father. Don't believe what your father tells you. You're very strong to be able to come to our message board to reach out for help. Keep in contact with us and many of us will help me get through this tough time.

[luvsthebeach]

I agree with everyone here letting you know you have our support. If you can find a counselor at school you can express your concerns. Your dad should not be putting you down. You know you are a wonderful person no matter what anyone says. Stay strong and reach out to people you trust.