Friends and communication.. =[

Well, I've said goodbye to alot of my old friends so now I have none of them left. I do miss them alot, it's just weird because when I think about them, all I can think about is the bad stuff. Why do people always have to think that way, always about the bad? Well, I really do miss them, I just wish I was still friends with them. I don't have much friends now only one or 2 close ones not including my sister. But I wish I could talk to them but I wouldn't know what to say. Nothing is just ever the same anymore. Just I was trying to fix things. When you're in a relationships it's important to communicate, right? Well that's what I was trying to do. It's just like all of a sudden I've started to miss my ex-boyfriends and friends I've befriended couple months ago.

I've become more anti-social, like no one is there to catch me when I fall or succeed. All my parents want is for me to do whatever they want, like they make all the decisions in my life. Well guess what? I'm almost sixteen and I'm sure I know what's right and wrong. I was raised to know that. Just sometimes I wish they would just listen when I'm trying to be reasonable. =[

Don't you just wish people were different??

Well, I've gotten tonsillitis 2 times in a row for the first time. one week after the other. Holy man, I really felt like I was dying, like legit. I couldn't talk, I couldn't swallow, I couldn't eat, I couldn't breathe. I always had these panic attacks where I would try to swallow but I couldn't and I'd start breathing really hard, crying and just plain old freaking out.

Keep going cutbuddie; it may seem like a long road but then one day you turn around and most of it really and truly is behind you, time included. So live, love and be happy & allow yourself your mistakes as well as your triumphs, because we learn from both,

Love to you,
Rhiannon

Do you know WHY you said goodbye to your old friends??? Were they not filling a need that you had? Was it that you couldn't communicate anymore? If you got back in contact with them do you think it would be any different now??

You are a very intelligent young lady ~ I wouldn't think you'd have trouble making new friends. Perhaps you're just a little "down" on yourself right now and feel helpless because your parents make decisions for you. But remember, that your parents want only the BEST for you ~ they LOVE you, and make those decisions to keep you on the straight and narrow and to keep you safe. My kids resented ME at times too, but now that they're grown up, they understand why I had to make those decisions. In fact, my daughter has a daughter - and SHE is making those same decisions with HER daughter now! LOL

Give yourself a break. In some ways you're being hard on yourself. In others, you're expecting too much of the world. LOL Life is what you make of it. Have fun! God bless you sweetie. Take care. Hugs, Lee