Is it Me?

Hi, would like to know if the problems in our relationship are mostly my fault and if so can someone give me some tips on how to be a positive instead of a negative in the relationship. I right my bf an I are fighting, I am 12 weeks pregnant and a few days ago just started taking respirdol. A couple of weeks before into taking respirdol I found out I was pregnant and my doc told me to stop taking it until now, prior to that I was taking celexa for about 6 months and that she has taken me off of due to my pregnancy. I missed a few appt with my doc and I really dont know what exactly is wrong with me as yet, she hasnt labeled me as yet. The problem is that my bf and I fight all the time granted he is a prick honestly and he is very hard to deal with, that he would agree with, but I find myself loosing a lot of patience, getting very angry for the first time in my life I punched someone last night, yes my boyfriend. I'm still in shock, I get in these rages lately more so than ever before. He tends to make references to me taking medication and has also told his fam which Im embarrased about, but he will say things like "remember I'm not the one thats crazy here", that would really %#@&#! me off. I'm sure u'll agree that thats not nice, but I want to be able to handle his comments better....the constant fighting is really stressing me out, Im not sleeping and it makes me think not very nice thoughts about him, basically everything that come out of his mouth pisses me off. While Im writing this he call and I have his granddaughter here, yesterday i asked him if he could take her home early, (due to everything that happend last night ) he calls and tell me that he will be busy for the next 4 hours its 11:30. I hung up on him, I'm tired of feeling like im the ***** and being called a crazy *****...I dont wanna feel this way anymore...I need to block him out because i cant handle it anymore. Since the kids woke up i've been in my room on the pc...cant face nothing and he tell me this...i just need to know how to cope without losing it.
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Based on what you're saying, it doesn't sound like it's your fault -- but I'm not sure that figuring that out is going to help much. (After all, regardless of who's fault it is, there's still only one person you can control...yourself.) The whole situation sounds a little scary, to be honest. Do you have a therapist or a counselor you could talk with about all this?

What a jackass! You blame yourself but he's NOT helping the situation any. He should learn to walk away from you when/if you're becoming irrational or rammy for whatever the reason.
Your hormones are out of whack because your pregnant so you're probably a lot more emotional then you'd normally be.

You need to make it a point to go and see your doctor when scheduled. Take care of the baby and yourself, first.

If you feel like you're out of control then you're going to have to find ways that prevent you from getting like that in the first place.
You know what sets you off. Be aware of them. Write them down if you have to then find different ways of either avoiding them or dealing with them if you HAVE to deal with them.
When he insults your behavior and says you're a crazy *****-try to take a deep breath and realize he's TRYING to turn you into a crazy ***** by saying that and if you react the way he wants you to-he wins. So try to stay calm, cool and collected. Show him he can't get to you. It'll ruin his fun.
((((((((((VanCity)))))))))))))
Forgive yourself for any outbursts. Treat yourself well and tend to your needs, first. NO more hitting or punching because you could wind up in jail for that and that's the last thing you need right now.
Good luck with this!

Thanks for your reply, have been speaking to my doc about the relationship, obviously she does not know what happend last night as yet, my next appt is in 3 weeks.

Can you get a therapy session sooner then that? Van, it sounds like you need someone to guide you through this, like, yesterday!
Try to get a session sooner then 3 weeks. Tell your doc that you need to speak with someone and maybe she'll recommend a therapist or give you a referral. Get one a.s.a.p.
Can you do that?

I will try to get an for sure, in the meantime i'll try the advice given a fall into his trap...which is easier said than done after a while and thats the part that scares me. He's home now so I"ll just try t read, thanks in advance for your responses. I do feel better just knowing I can tell someone how I feel

I hope things are going better for you, Van. Take care of yourself. Hugs!!!

((((((((Van)))))))) Hope you can get a therapy session much sooner than 3 weeks. Take care of yourself! You have a very important somebody growing in there!