[dillpickle1983]

Hey Everyone,

Lately I've been feeling really depressed and really sad. My partner and I split up on 02/23/2011, after 5 years. Now I can't say that our relationship was very strong over the last 2 years or so, mainly because of MY lack of communication. Anyways we still are friends, and I still care about him. We talk on the phone once or twice per week, and everytime I do I want to cry after hanging the phone up with him. We didn't split up in a bad way, but it was circumstantial, I lost my job, things were no longer really working out.

I feel so alone. I've never felt so alone before. I also really like somebody else, and frequent his Facebook page. I've told him I have / had feelings for him, He also said he did too, but didn't think it would work out completely. I feel like I'm obsessed with him, but thats another story. I don't know what or how to think, I'm scared that I can't do it alone and really have no life skills to deal with the emotions of being single now. I'm a pretty depressive person, I do jobs that are very independent, like being an OTR Truck Driver. I don't like being part of a "team" hence why I'm avoiding the kitchen.

It saddens me when I look on his Facebook page and see places he's at, it brings back memories. I know I need to live a little, and be single. It's best for him right now, I felt like I dragged us down.

I still would give the shirt off my back for him, he really means that much to me,

HOW DO I LET HIM GO, HOW DO I MOVE ON?

I feel so alone, very very alone.

[Leed]

It's hard being single after you've been a 'couple' for so long. I was married for MANY years, and then divorced. I felt so out of it, being single all of a sudden ~ I didn't know how to act. But I KNEW I had to get out among friends, and not isolate. I couldn't just stay home and play the little "homemaker" like I had done for so many years.

Get out among friends ~ go to coffee shops, places where people gather. Call your old friends and arrange to go out somewhere. Let your friends know that you're single again. Have some FUN. But don't just sit at home collecting dust. That's a GOOD way to get even more depressed. I wish you the very best. Life is too short to sit and wait for life to happen. God bless. Hugs, Lee