[nice girl]

I feel the need to get myself a psychotherapist. . . .
Also it's too difficult for me to get a therapist without letting anyone know. . . . I dnt want anyone to know. . . .
I can't even disclose it to my best friend and that feels pathetic. . . .
I mean once i mentioned joining this site and she got all there isn't anything wrong with u. . . .
And treated me differently so i lied about quitting to come here. . . . What else could i do. . . . I mean im the one going through these problems and i know it's very hard for me to cope up. . . . But i can't even call her at nite when im awfully depressed and tell her i wanna die cause once when i did so she's told me she won't be there for me she has a family n if she gets in trouble cause someday i do end up my life. . . . Then her family will also be in trouble. . . . Also she told me to go and do what ever i felt like. . . . Even though she apologized for being rude. . . . Everything is gr8 between us. . . . I mean in all other kinds of trouble she's there to hold my hand. . . . And im there for her. . . . But still I understand im alone on my own. . . . What am i supposed to do. . . .I pretend like im totally fine in front of her. . . . I had one person who understood what i am going through but even he's not bothered about me right now. . . . Feel soo empty among people. . . .
Now a days when im up at night im all alone and miserable. . . . With nothing but darkness n silence around me. . . .

[LookingforCalm]

I'm so sorry you're feeling so down. I hope you can talk to your friend, and make it to where she can be more understanding. The hardest thing about talking to friends about depression is if they don't understand - it might be harder to empathize. I have a friend that it's hard to talk to about my "episodes" because she's never really experienced being that depressed.

But you shouldn't have to pretend. Some people can't handle others, or perhaps they simply can't relate. But don't feel ashamed. Your feelings are yours, and you can't help them. But hopefully, with help from here and maybe a therapist, you can help yourself. You have support here!

[nice girl]

Thanks loads for replying. . . . Well It's horrible being all alone with no one besides u when u cry. . . .

[biblioknitter]

I have found that having a pet to love really help the loneliness. If you are unable to have a pet then stuffed animals are a nice substitute-they are great at listening and cuddling.

[nice girl]

I would love to keep a pet, but my parents are against keeping pets. . . .

[which_way_is_up]

I too feel alone. I have nothing to do with what is left of my family, they wrote me off years ago. I have my 2 teenaged daughters and DH. That's it. I don't have any close friends, several acquaintances, but no friends. Since DH's accident, I'm even more alone. I work, take care of everyone and sleep that's it. But I've always felt this way. I envy people like my receptionist who has many close friends upwards of 15-20 years. I encourage my daughters to form long term friendships, telling them they'll appreciate as they get older. However, I've never been able to do that myself.

[nice girl]

I'm sorry to hear that. . . .
It's horrible to be all alone. . . .
U knw there are many who would love to be around me but i just keep a stay away board on my neck many a times that's not something i wanna do but then what do i do. . . . I just got a nice T's Number, i will make an appointment to him. . . .
Guys complement me and i just stay away from them, , , ,
Hell i hate this. . . . I have everything beauty brains, yet nothing, im a nothing. . . .
Probably would have been better had i been just a statue, A beautiful show piece, and that's what i am, probably, , , ,

I'm extremely sorry to hear u r lonely, being alone is one of the worst curse. . . .

Hello, nice girl. Choose to live. If you need help to make your life more meaningful, get it. What you are doing is not working. Change it.

Good luck.