the healing is the worst part help me

how will i get through this,, i finally did it. the restraining order. it took time but i did it, after i was strangled,, spit at , bit, pissed on, head trough a wall, told i be killed if i left, told my family memeber would be hurt, i had to tell him everything , he made me tell him i loved him,, forced me too, and then he jailed me for fighting back, when he called my child horriable names,,, yes my friends the worst night mare of my life came true ,,, and im not sure if i can handle it.. no friends no family, nothing im alone,, and they dont care my family, i always been thrown away because of my diease but i never deserve this... he lied to me said he was sorry and he would get help but the abuse continued,,, i might not survive

Hi Carla
Sending positive vibes to you - you deserve better than the things you have been through.
Take care of yourself.

thank you ,, he said i didnt so its going to be an up hill battle i suppose i just need a friend

Carla
That's what all abusive men say.
They are trying to make you feel bad about yourself so you won't leave them.
it's because he himself is actually very weak and a coward.
That's why he is beating on a woman instead of someone his own size and strength.
Have you contacted a domestic violence counselor that can help you?
Here's a link to some information.
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/dome...prevention.htm

Look up disgusted with the system. That will describe him, I`m sure. No, you are not alone. I may not be in the same boat, but am in the same ocean!1