So I've come to terms with my reality

And that reality is that I will never find someone to start a family with. I will never have that comfortable lifestyle that I can come home to the one I love. Relationships are retarded and I can't seem to properly manage one. It doesn't matter anyways because I'm too ugly and self-conscious to go out there and try to find another one. Why is it that relationships begin with so much interest, passion, and love and then eventually fade away? Why doesn't love last?

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I have no answers to your questions. I sense you anguish though. But instead of feeling moved to encourage you to not give up I wonder.... Perhaps as you "came to terms with it", and accepted, can you let it go, and envision a life for yourself where you are at peace with it, and free to make what what happiness you desire for yourself, by yourself?

There are, you know, people who find contentment in being by themselves. They don't even need to be hermits, but find sufficient social interraction in casual social settings, of work, fitness clubs, churches, pottery or painting classes, walking or biking groups, photography clubs, or whatever else may be pleasant to you. They form emotional ties with pets, which never betray, never talk back, never play head games.

And know that sometimes we have to let go of expectations to find what we are looking for. If you stop looking for love, and find peace in contentment in your life maybe love will find you, but if it does then, I am pretty sure, it will be quite different,

lady, to answer your question to why doesn't love last, perhaps you've just not found that special someone.
it's not easy for many of us to keep ourselves away from black and white thinking..meaning we form opinions to the extreme rather than considering other thoughts or feelings. like letting shades of grey be considered. your feeling like you'll never find a long term realationship is an absolute thought rather than thinking it will/may happen for you, just not yet. try to keep your optional thinking open or you may miss that moment.
"doesn't matter anyways because I'm too ugly and self-conscious ..."
our self concepts can also be skewed. working on your self esteem may be helpful for you. here are some links that may help you...
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/self-esteem/MH00129

http://www.livestrong.com/article/13925-self-esteem/

Hey girl, don't be so hard on yourself.
I often feel that way too, but it's all a matter of perspective and mood. You seem depressed - is there a therapist you can see? Are there ways to just make yourself feel better? You deserve to be on top of the world! And there is someone for everyone, keep your hope alive.

I felt the same way too, then I met a wonderful man, and we loved each other. Sadly, he died, too young, but that doesn't mean love failed. I don't think I'll ever be that happy again, or feel that safe again, but I do have the knowledge that love exists for all of us. I'm a woman who has so many issues, so many problems, and yet a man still loved me. The same thing can happen for you.

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