I've recently ended several relationships with others that had been one sided for so long. That I finally realized it was my fantasy that it was a equal or give and take relationship.

But, I seriously feel like I just don't fit in

Like I just don't get it

Everybody has their own life's, routines, schedules, moods.

I know I am especially moody.

Today I feel that I just can't get along with anyone. That I'm fed up with everything. I just don't get it.

I'm even angry about it.

Sometimes I'm told I said a certain thing or behaved a certain way and I don't remember.

Also others will tell me their stuff and I forget - SO it's only right that I would feel the brush off from them.

I don't remember things so well. I get all taken up in emotional turmoil about the littlest things and do the black and white thinking.

All or nothing.

I end up with nothing.

Yet, I did it!

I know that I am emotionally unstable most of the time.
I trigger easily.
I then freeze up and zombie. Like my mouth can't even move.

This is not a pity thing. I'm just writing because I really just don't know what the heck to do or say or not say or not do, or when or what, how, why -

It's too much.

And yet I've been saying I like me...ha ha ha - Well I do, but I'm a mess!

[acrazynao]

i don't know if it helps, but i've felt and feel very similar. i used to like me, but i'm not so sure anymore.

[nightdreamer7982]

((((Starlite*111))))
I've been not getting along with anyone either? I hate my screwed up life too!!! Grrrrrrr!!!!!!! I just want to grab someone's shoulder's and shake some sence into his head? I hate his sorry attitude that much!!!!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! I just can't don't get along with no one anymore. Hmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!! I freaking hate the drama and the fighting but wth!!! I don't give up at all?

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Starlite

you give so much, Rhiannon has some of your messages of support written out and pinned to her message wall. She told me of you and asked me to ensure that you are cared for while she is within. If there is anything that would help you please tell me of it

Morgana

[shezbut]

I can understand what you're saying. Life can be very frustrating at times. Feeling alone ~ over-worked and unloved.

Very hard, sad times. Do know that people in this world do care about you. People who don't want you to feel stuck in a hellish maze.

Gentle hugs to you!

[nightdreamer7982]

Hi Starlite, I agree with them? I'm in your same position as well hun. Grrrrrr!!!!!! I just want to grab my boyfriend's shoulders and shake all this drama out of him too!!! I know he loves me because. I love him too!!!! I know one thing is for sure? I found him and he found me first too!!! Grrrr!!! I'm a great and very supportive girlfriend to him and he's a great and supportive boyfriend to me as well?!

[nightdreamer7982]

I want to get along with my boyfriend but? I find it really difficult as well. Grrrrrr!! I did what was right for him too!!! It just irritates the hell outta me and he knows my moods and he knows. I am angered easily at him too!!! Grrrrrr!! red hot and fuming pissed off with him as well?? Argh!! I can't express enough how much he means so much to me?! I know he means alot to me too!

[alwayslookin]

Originally Posted by Anonymous29357

I've recently ended several relationships with others that had been one sided for so long. That I finally realized it was my fantasy that it was a equal or give and take relationship.

But, I seriously feel like I just don't fit in

Like I just don't get it

Everybody has their own life's, routines, schedules, moods.

I know I am especially moody.

Today I feel that I just can't get along with anyone. That I'm fed up with everything. I just don't get it.

I'm even angry about it.

Sometimes I'm told I said a certain thing or behaved a certain way and I don't remember.

Also others will tell me their stuff and I forget - SO it's only right that I would feel the brush off from them.

I don't remember things so well. I get all taken up in emotional turmoil about the littlest things and do the black and white thinking.

All or nothing.

I end up with nothing.

Yet, I did it!

I know that I am emotionally unstable most of the time.
I trigger easily.
I then freeze up and zombie. Like my mouth can't even move.

This is not a pity thing. I'm just writing because I really just don't know what the heck to do or say or not say or not do, or when or what, how, why -

It's too much.

And yet I've been saying I like me...ha ha ha - Well I do, but I'm a mess!

wow..i felt like it was my own thougts you were expressing...

[ledz]

Just wanted to stop by and say hi to someone I had a real connection with. You were the first to welcome me to PC. I dropped the ball. Can we talk?