[soul-to-squeeze]

Maybe I'm over-dramatizing when I say my boyfriend is never there for me, but it's a rarity for him to be completely open-minded and accepting of me. When I started having episodes, of which I can only compare to those of bi-polar disorder (I am not diagnosed), he began pulling back. I've always been a manic depressive personality, but he's never really dealt with it. He avoids me a lot lately, and I have no idea what I should do.
Sometimes I feel like I need to break things off, but I'm in such a bad way, that I feel as though leaving will make me feel even more empty and alone. He's never been this close to someone with mental illness, so I try to be understand of the predicament he's in, but does it really take four years to warm up to someone you can't relate to in that way?
I've adapted to his alcoholic tendencies. I nurture him when he is sad, and I try my best to control my emotions around him. I'm just not sure what I should do. I'm depressed, and he can't and won't try to help me.
Maybe I should just do as he said - "Then get some ****ing help and quit crying about it."

Is it really that simple?

[tattoogirl33]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know how frusterating it is! Sounds like you an he both need a little "intervention". Therapy for yourself is a good place to start.

My boyfriend doesn't "get me" either and it can make life so lonly at times. (I'm Bipolar and Borderline) He feels as though just giving me space is what helps and it has hurt us greatly over the years. (I need comfort and understanding, not a man that walks away from me) Truth is I would have ditched him years ago if not for having a 7 yr old son together. I wish you the best and hope you can get all the help you need.

[Seaswept]

Hi Soul to Squeeze,

My husband walks away too. In the house anyway when I am talking. He is there for me when I have a crisis though which I am grateful for but living like that is hard.

I'm sorry too that your going through this and agree with tattoogirl start by seeing a therapist you have to help yourself.

Best wishes to you.

[lad007]

Well sweetie, when you said he is not there for you, people don't change, so wouldn't you rather be alone and work on seeking out a relationship that is healthy and can enhance your life?
Plus you shouldn't be in a relationship where you have to "control yourself" you should be free to express yourself, and be accepted.

[soul-to-squeeze]

I appreciate all of your thoughts so much <3 Thank you!

I would like to say we broke up this morning, and it has been especially hard on me. This is the best decision for us both, though. He has been saying such hateful things, and I can't even imagine why they're coming from his mouth when I trusted and loved him so much for so long.

I'm hurting, but I'm trying to cope in a healthy way. All of you helped and supported that decision. Thank you again.