[likewater]

I hurt my bfriend's feelings. I called him an idiot because he watched superbowl alone rather than going with me to friends house. Once i realized i hurt his feelings, i apologized and said i understoodd he has to get up early to work and likes to be at home Sunday
nights. I always screw up. I mean it should be a no brainer if i call him an idiot it would hurt his feelings. And now i feel suicidal, and i
don't understand that, but everytime i screw up i feel i must die. Part of me thinks killing myself might hurt him more than calling him an idiot, but maybe i'm becoming verbally abusive and it would be better to remove myself from equation than hurt him day after day

[Confusedinomicon]

Have you talked to him?

I don't think suicide is the answer here. I believe all you need to do is talk to him and apologize for what you said. It's honestly not a big deal. People say hurtful things all the time, but if you feel remorse and apologize then it should be fine. I've been with my boyfriend for 4 years now, and we've gotten in fights because of the way I say things. (Sometimes I don't think before speaking) I hurt his feelings a lot, so we talk about those feelings. If he hurts my feelings over something he says we do the same thing.

If you love your boyfriend, and he loves you it would hurt him a lot of you hurt yourself. Please don't. Stay safe!

((likewater))

[Inedible]

Most people have trouble forgiving themselves. They punish themselves over and over and over again for minor infractions best left forgotten. In your case, what you really meant to say was that you thought your boyfriend deprived himself of a more pleasant evening which he could have had with you. You only wanted more happiness for him. This sounds like a virtue to me. The way you went about expressing it at the time could have been improved upon, which you recognized after the fact. Having made a mistake you set about correcting it, which is the thing to do. You handled it well. Next year you will do things better; you will tell him that the game is coming up and that you would prefer it if he could go ahead and take a nap during the day so he can go out with you to see the game with friends and enjoy the party. Then he will be able to get up early and go to work. Or something like that.

[likewater]

He sent me a text that says," everything is cool man. " Thank you for the help.