[BleedingDestruction]

I don't know what to do.

Today, I got in trouble for avoiding family time and not wanting to go to Sea World. My parents said that they'd listen to anything I had to say in the car ride, but anything I said they ignored or twisted and used against me. How am I supposed to cope with my problems when there isn't anyone who cares? How can I make them understand that this isn't a game to me?

This is important to me. I am confused and I want to get my life back on track. Kira-Kira isn't helping enough, even with all the great advice he gives. No one I know seems to realize that I have emotions and that I hurt just like anyone else. I'm just the crazy girl that my classmates avoid, not a confused girl that needs someone who can try to understand me.

They are all going to do what my parents do and use my own words against me.

I can't go to a teacher or one of the school councelors; they will tell my father.

I can't go to a friend because none of them are really even aware that I feel pain just like another human being.

I can't go to any of my family because if they aren't legally insane they are just like my parents and take everything I say and twist it around.

I can't go on like this.

[Leed]

Bless your heart --- I can remember feeling just like you. I used to hurt SO BAD. I couldn't talk to my parents either, mostly because my parents were the cause of my pain.

Why do you think the school counselors will tell your parents? Have they done that before? Can you ask them to keep it confidential? Is it something that your parents HAVE to know?

Sometimes parents get so wrapped up in day-to-day things that they SEEM like they aren't listening. Is there a chance that you can go to your Mom and say "Hey Mom, will you come to my room where we can sit down and really TALK?? I really need to talk to you NOW."
Do you think you could do that? I have a feeling that if your Mom understands that you really mean business, she'll LISTEN.

Don't give up on your Mom. Keep trying. In the meantime, if you want to private message me, I'll answer. I promise. God bless, and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[BleedingDestruction]

Thank you for the advice

Yes, the councilors at my school have told my parents about things I asked them to keep private. It is not something my parents have to know; in every case where I have talked to someone about my problems, it was just about how I felt after I burst into tears in class once or twice.

I tried talking to my mother as you suggested today, after I got sent home because of a panic attack. She listened, and then made it quite clear that she thought I was insane and compared me to my aunt that neglects my cousins.

[BlueInanna]

i agree with Leed, bless your heart... you shouldn't have to keep everything bottled in. i'm glad you can talk here anonymously. and please don't ever give up. i remember my mother ignoring me when i was a teen and told her i o/d'd on aspirin. recently she apologized and said she just didnt know i was having such a hard time. i also hope you can get to a therapist or doctor and possibly try some medicine that helps with panic attacks... the med helps me. good luck honey hang in there, i really hope it gets a little easier for you.