i am so depressed and guilty

i have been trapped in false accusations and rumors of being intimate with guys.these guys are the same people who i trusted as 'friends' 2 yrs back and the same guys spoiling my name(i was immature then).worse,my ex(2 yrs back we were in relation,we were together for a yr almost with breakups in between) misused my personal pics.now my present bf knows all this through sources and me as well..in fact he is the one who turned out to be my ex's friend and revealed to me what my ex did after we(me and ex) broke up.my 2nd relation ran 5 months continuous,but my bf left me suddenly giving me no reason.my current relation is 1 1/2 year old.but things have turned worse now as my current boyfriend calls me by names when we have quarrels,bringing out my past..he never seems to believe what i say,restricts me etc..sharing any issue related to past or present has become a huge problem therefore.i love my boyfriend a lot but i don't want to get such a treatment,so i broke up today.he is in anger,as it happens when i threat to dump him,and as usual he assumes i would return.i am missing him too much and guilty of my past(he has increased it),besides very scared to go into a relationship with him or anyone again.(i don't have any male friends now and scared to make any further).help me out of such a mood!!

If these accusations are FALSE -- then I really wouldn't worry about it. YOU know the truth. That's all that's important. Anyone who REALLY cares about you will BELIEVE you. The people who don't believe you are NOT worth worrying about. Stay away from them, as they are toxic. They'll just further ruin your reputation just by hanging around them.

Make new friends -- good and decent people. And don't put yourself in situations where your reputation can even POSSIBLY become stained. Decent people will not do that to you.

Best of luck & take care. Hugs, Lee

I agree with Leed, those people are toxic. Maybe take some time out just to be with yourself a while, you don't always have to have a boyfriend. Just go out with friends and have fun. There are things you can do that will not ruin your reputation and still have fun. I wish you well.