[csavage]

Just wrote an entire post and lost it all. I'm so flippin' mad, it seems like everytime I want to tell someone how I feel, something happens to make me want to shove it back in. Husband didn't like me on anti-dep. so I went off, to teach him a lesson. He said I wasn't passionate enough. So, now I want to have sex, but I want to rip his ever lovin face off because I'm back to square one with anxiety feelings of helplessness, sadness, triggers, you name it. What a JERK!! He doesn't even want to know what it's doing to me. He asks me how I'm doing and I say GReat with as much sarcasm I can muster and he says Good. Slap on my thong and Anna Nicole get-up and do what makes him happy and then go cry like a baby because I don't want to be happy and how dare him for taking away my "crutch". Everything is a trigger now and people are getting tired of listening to me, but he obviously doesn't know the first thing about this. I am so sad, I don't want to leave the house, but I have to work full time, which just makes the anxiety and need to lash out, 10 times greater What do I do? I'm not where I thought I was spiritually, emotionally or anywhere without the medication, but it scares me to death that I need the meds to not cuss, not rip someone's head off and just normal every day stuff. Please help. . .

[dottie]

Hi! IMO you NEED to get back on the meds. His attitude justs lights my fire. I better not say anymore> GRRRRR!!

[PetulantWolf]

IMO, go back on the meds asap-what is the one they advertise as having "no sexual side effects" ? Is that a possibility? I think its Wellbutrin. Im thinking if f youre going to be faking the saex thing anyway, you may as well be on the antidepressants, right? I was in a similar situation once...not good for your self esteem at all. Please ventas often as you want. You friends here never get tired of listening. HUGS!

Hi, I don't blame you for being upset and angry, I would be too. I would like to say a few things about your husband, but I will follow the motto "if you can't say anything nice don't say it at all". Anyway, Lexapro is supposed to be a great antidepressant without the side effects of many others. I know meds work differently for everyone, and I am going by what I've heard from doctor's and research. Maybe you can discuss this issue with your doc? I hope things work out for you, if I had someone who was that insensitive to me I don't think I'd want to be intimate with them whether I was feeling passionate or not! Maybe when you feel up to it you can discuss this issue further with your husband.

[bebop]

I'm not where I thought I was spiritually, emotionally or anywhere without the medication, but it scares me to death that I need the meds to not cuss, not rip someone's head off and just normal every day stuff. Please help. . .

I don' t think meds make us not curse. As for being spiritual that just means we need to get on our knees more and pray that God give us the strength to do the things we need to be doing

[Lexicon78]

Maybe being truthful with your hubby on how you're feeling may help? I'm not sure, he doesn't sound too supportive and actually sounds quite selfish if you ask me, but that's just my opinion.

You need to get back on the meds, regardless of what your hubby thinks you need...he's not the one suffering so badly. You are.

Try to hang in there.

please try to get back on the meds and tell him to slap the thong on and be Anna Nicole for a day! xoxoxo pat