[ThisIsMe0557]

I need help. I don't like who I am. I seem to do wrong and I mess up everything. I kno I mess up everything cuz I hear it every day. I hear how stupid I am and how I weak I am on a daily basis. I try to b strong for everyone but I can't. after hearing how "messed up" I am on a daily basis I'm starting to believe it. I hate who I am. I wanna b somebody else. Anybody else. As long as I dnt have to live with me. I want to run away from myself. But how do u run away from yourself when u have to go with u everywhere u go? No one even likes me. No one cares. If I was to disappear right now I don't even think anyone would notice. Like if I was to die I dnt even think anyone would even show up to my funeral. I really don't care for myself and I just wanna disappear. Help me please!!! :'''''''(

I'm sorry ThisIsMe0557. That sounds really hard. I don't like who I am either and I feel like I mess things up too much.

after hearing how "messed up" I am on a daily basis I'm starting to believe it

A common tip I see is to have a good "support network" to help you. It looks like the people around you are having a negative impact on you. I'm not saying you should avoid them but rather that you should have some positive influences. This website is a good place for that as is a therapist and certain friends (if you are lucky enough to have such friends). Posting here is a good start.

[IowaFarmGal]

So hard to live with critical people! Be gentle and patient with yourself, like you would be with a good friend. Try to be an encouraging voice with yourself, you have too much of the other as it is. Move toward the person you want to be. Set yourself small reachable goals so you can have success to build your confidence and self worth. All that you're saying about how you're feeling sounds very familiar to me too. Hugs!