My hunny is going out tonight with a friend to a show (dj) and I can't go. I haven't been able to go out since my relapse in march..

We usually spend Fridays together and..

Im totally jealous now of the friend hes goin with for getting to spend time with him and I can't.

And that makes me feel even dumber.

yick.

[Sabrina]

My husband is out tonight (right now) as a bouncer no less, for an 18 year old's birthday party. (Friend of younger brother)

I have spent the entire evening stressing and feeling utterly morbid. Besides that - every time - EVERY time husband goes out without me I feel totally desolate that I have been left behind. How stupid is that?

I understand your jealousy. OMG - how I understand.

Don't feel dumb - how 'normal' and 'human' (sorry) these feelings are!

YICK - what a lovely word. So I say - double yick!!!

[Cathy8093]

I don't think it's stupid. You're hurt because your hunny is going out with a friend and not you. It's an understandable emotion. Try calling your hunny and talking on the phone or e-mailing him/her. Let your hunny know how you're feeling, be honest.

Thank you so much Sabrina, you make me feel much more normal (whatever normal is)

I think its just that we are told all our lives that jealousy is bad, and I have alot of trouble expressing it because of abandonment issues in the past without it triggering me, or making me lash out or isolate.

nice to know im not alone here.

(yick is fantastic is it not? sort of like yuck, only so yucky you dont even want to poke it with a stick)

Thank you Cathy, you are right. And I KNOW hes so understanding about these things, I think i have more of a problem with myself having these feelings to be honest than he would have.

[Sabrina]

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(yick is fantastic is it not? sort of like yuck, only so yucky you dont even want to poke it with a stick)

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Whine whine whine.

I want to go out

*pout*

[mlyn]

not stupid!!!!!
So understand!!!!!

[Lexicon78]

I think this is perfectly normal. I used to be so jealous of all my friend's other friends. I guess because I wanted to be the center of their attention or whatever.

Hang in there.

yeah, I get that way sometime. I think it has alot to do with my fear of if I dont see people regulary and on a schedule, I get frightened that they will go away forever or find something or someone better than me and break up with me/find other friends etc.

It is a little unrational I know. But it still lurks there.