Need to vent... (Advice may very well be appreciated in this case.)

----WARNING: The following post does contain some profanity. I apologize in advance, for this is usually not how I am, but I get like this when I am depressed, so all profanity used is just to provide a more accurate feel for my situation on my end of the table... I do not mean to offend with it... ----

During the summer I dated this girl... she was beautiful, amazing, funny, etc... she broke up with me because she moved to New Jersey and didn't wanna do long distance... It took me a long time to get over her, and then once I finally found someone else, the girl I meet does this "I love you, I love you, I love you" thing, and then starts dating this guy, dumps him, tells me she's a lesbian, and stops talking to me... My ex from over the summer (the one who moved) tells me that she wants to stop talking to me because her life is so much less stressful without me, and I just sorta gave up hope of being happy because no matter what I do, I get kicked in the nuts by life... And then I find this girl who I had a crush on for a while but never acted on because she dated my friend, but then they broke up, and I let her know I was into her... and I kinda had a reason to smile in the morning... because she thought it was really awesome that I liked her... But it turns out she likes the guy who put me through so much emotional trauma as a child that it actually ****ed me up in my head... So now I'm pissed at her because she keeps doing this "I'm sorry" thing but she doesn't ****ing understand... not a damn bit... And aside from that I'm constantly depressed, I keep trying to talk to people, but they all ignore me or forget I exist, and I keep living a very minimal and depressing existence... because if it's not my friends, it's my job, and if it's not my job it's school, and if it's not school it's that my Grandpa just got put in the hospital because his Alzheimer's kicked in and he tried to really hurt my Grandma... and I am close to giving up on my music because no one is gonna listen to it... no one gives a ****... I'm just so ****ing sick and tired of being alone all the ****ing time...

Bless your heart -- being your age is one of the most DIFFICULT times in life you will ever experience. Everything is changing. You're trying to become your own person -- everyone is telling you what to do-- you're trying to find someone to love, and you're always getting rejected. It happens all the time at your age. Plus your body is changing and things are happeniing at warp speed and it's all so confusing.

Do you and your parents have a good relationship? Can you talk to your Dad man to man? That's not really very common in this day and age cause parents don't seem to relate well to their kids -- they're too busy which is a travesty. They should TAKE THE TIME to talk to their kids.

How about talkiing to a counselor at school? You NEED someone to talk to and that's what the counselors are there for. They're there to help you with your problems. Not just academic problems, but life problems too. Have a talk with your counselor -- you'll be VERY glad you did my friend. And it doesn't have to be a one time thing -- see about talking to him/her perhaps once a week or more. I'm sure it will make a difference. AND -- DONT' GIVE UP THAT MUSIC!!! It's a very important outlet for you, plus if you're talented, who knows where it might take you! God bless and keep me posted, will you? I care! Hugs, Lee

Mom is a lesbian and is married to my step mom, Dad lives in Scotland, counselor doesn't help out much, my parents and I have a fairly decent relationship but I refuse to give my mother more problems than needed right now at this point in her life because she is also taking everything with my Grandpa very hard...

To add more to the problems, the people I try to talk to keep cursing me out and go on to say I am the immature one...

does anybody realize the irony of this?

Oh well...

Life goes on.

It's just all so hard, ya know?

Do you feel you could talk to the counselor at school?? Afterall, that's what they're there for. They will NOT tell anyone what you've said or what you were there for.

It's worth a try, ya know.

Well, I'm glad you made it to PC. You will find a lot of kind and caring people here.

Yes I have! Very many! Guess who is on my Christmas list?! ^_^

Sid, do the same as me. Become an introvert for many years then "maybe" look outside.

It is so much more peaceful being single and problem less when it comes to relationships!

Thank you all so much for helping me out right now! I appreciate it very much!

Leed- I actually do go see one once a week or so... Our schedules are both too busy to see each other more often

Iamnutty- that's actually not a bad idea... I might just act on that!