[Christa87413]

I think that my bf is crazier then I am!
... Well, atleast more bi polar or depressed, or something!!!

When I started going back to get help, he told me he would be my support.... Then the other night, as we get to his house, he tells me that its all in my head and that the docs are feeding off my hypochondriac mind...

I've told him what all goes on with me.. He tells me that its all just in my head, and I tell him, ya it is.. I have some chemicals missing, or outta wack and we are trying to get me better... Then it just goes into an argument I never want, so I just sit there silent while he rants off about how I'm not crazy and its all in my head... HOW IS THAT SUPPORTING ME?!?!?!

Besides making him read books, how in the world do I get him to understand what is going on?! How do I get him to see that what I am going threw is real? I'm to scared to tell him my new dx for fear that he will do off the deep end with me... "Ya, I'm dating a skizo." ya, like that sounds good.... I'm great at hiding everything wrong with me, just because I have lived 27 years and learned how to just say, ya, i'm alright, with a fake smile. Who needs to know the truth? They won't be able to help, or change the past, so its just whatever...

I love him to pieces, and I just want him to understand what is going on with me! How do we do that?!

Bi polar 2, skizo, HPD, small bouts of depression when I have time to think about actions...

[astenon]

My heart goes out to you. You're dealing with enough without him adding to your worries.

As you suggest you could get some books and leave them lying around in the hope he reads them. I was going to suggest getting him to talk to the docs, but it sounds as though he wouldn't believe them anyway.

I'm terrible with words when I try and talk to people. Maybe writing him a letter would help? You can say all you want to say and take your time over it before he gets to read it.

I don't know anything about how it works in the States but could he be worried about the effect of the cost of treatment? It sounds as though he used to support you, but now something is holding him back. Maybe something else is going on or your illness is being blamed for something and that's why he's gone into denial about it?

Just some thoughts. I wish you all the best.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Christa87413

Bi polar 2, skizo, HPD, small bouts of depression when I have time to think about actions...

you need to have someone sort through your diagnoses. it is very confusing already and for someone who is in denial a bit in general, must be even more confusing

[Christa87413]

Originally Posted by astenon

My heart goes out to you. You're dealing with enough without him adding to your worries.

As you suggest you could get some books and leave them lying around in the hope he reads them. I was going to suggest getting him to talk to the docs, but it sounds as though he wouldn't believe them anyway.

I'm terrible with words when I try and talk to people. Maybe writing him a letter would help? You can say all you want to say and take your time over it before he gets to read it.

I don't know anything about how it works in the States but could he be worried about the effect of the cost of treatment? It sounds as though he used to support you, but now something is holding him back. Maybe something else is going on or your illness is being blamed for something and that's why he's gone into denial about it?

Just some thoughts. I wish you all the best.

The cost isn't a factor with my illness, well... except going to a inpatient place that's like 10,000$... lol!! But he doesn't support me at all, I support myself.

[Christa87413]

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

you need to have someone sort through your diagnoses. it is very confusing already and for someone who is in denial a bit in general, must be even more confusing

we are going threw that right now anyways.... I see my counsiler once a week, and every 2 weeks back to my Pdoc, then they get together and go over whats being said, they go over it with me, its a new thing... eventually I'll stop seeing the med doc so much and things will be figured out as I go...

and the only thing I don't fully agree with is the skizo, but at the same time, it would also explain alot..

[hamster-bamster]

It takes a while to properly diagnose schizophrenia. And while schizophrenia would explain a lot, other things might explain a lot at well. Just because it is fitting your history does not necessarily mean you have it.

[Christa87413]

tis true hampster...

all this will work out in due time..