Do I still have a crush?

I don't know if you guys have ever heard of my ex-crush, Dusty.
Maybe a few of you guys know about him, but this may be new to some.

Dusty is a 6ft 4in. football player and has a slightly built figure. He has darker hair brushed back and has these beautiful eyes. Oh, and the big thing is that he's a Mormon.

The thing that attracted me the most were his clear blue eyes, so I automatically became hooked.

Well, it actually started out with a fear of Dusty. Every time he looked at me, I would feel creeped out. Some of the time, my fear got out of hand and I would scream.

I finally faced my fear and confronted him. He was nice, and I wanted to get to know him more. My highschool has high tech way of learning, and we have our own laptops to take home and do work on. We have a school emailing system as well, and I contacted Dusty from there. It was only a few messages until he stopped talking to me.

Then I got this crazy crush on him, and I would look back at him and sometimes I would wait for him to pass by me. Even I would go on Dusty's facebook page and look through his profile.

I got to obsessed with him to the point where his friends knew about the crush and avoided me.

I then decided to stop doing those things. I quit doing those things and pretended to ignore him, but my habits haven't really gone away.

I think about him all the time and I always ask myself what it would be like to be a friend to him although I'm not.

I still look back at Dusty, but I catch him noticing me also. Whenever he sees me first, we stare at each other for some time.

I even have dreams of him talking to me.

I'm guessing that I still might have a crush on him, but I know for sure that I'm just really curious about him.

It kind of makes me sad and embarassed when I think about him sometimes.

I was actually rejected by him at a school dance last year. I asked him for a hug and he said to me, "No thanks I'm good."

Hi KZ

I'd say you still have a crush because you have posted about him. I understand the power a crush can carry, but I believe you are wasting your time. What he said to you at the dance was an attempt to be polite, but it was harsh. The next time you become curious about how it would feel to be with Dusty, remember he's the one who has no desire whatsoever to hug you.

There are plenty of Dustys out there. Don't waste your time, energy, and thoughts on this one. Good luck.

I'm sorry Dusty rejected you and I know how painful that can be. I remember going thru that myself when I was a teen MANY years ago. It really devastated me.

But you can't keep thinking about this guy. There are other guys out there who deserve your attention, plus you're taking attention away from your studies too. You don't want to mess up your grades by thinkiing about this guy all the time.

Unfortunately, he's just a waste of your time. So find someone who CARES about you and who DESERVES you -- this guy doesn't. He doesn't deserve your time. Best of luck hon, and take care. Hugs, Lee

(((KZ)))

Yep, sounds like a crush to me.

Dusty sounds like a jerk to have actually rejected a hug from you. Some guys, at this age, are just in their own bubble or something. There are a lot of really decent guys out there, and then there are a few of these types that know that they're eye-catching & their egos seem to fly above the roof.

I know how hard it is to let go of obsession, so please don't let it get that far. Let go of Dusty now. He isn't worth your time or heartache. There are a lot of decent guys out there, just wishing that they could get noticed by a pretty girl like you. Focus on taking care of yourself emotionally and physically. Before you know it, a decent guy will be interested in you & you'll be emotionally available!

The thing is though, is that my heart does not seem to go out to him, but to some one who I might meet in the near future.
I just know that he was someone that I use to like.

Some how, I just feel confused.