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Old Apr 24, 2013, 03:45 PM
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It doesn't make any sense. We're very different. I can't be bothered to go too deep into it all. I wrote a very large posting about everything including this but it got deleted as I had to log in- for no reason as I already was logged in..?? I still miss him. I sometimes think about us settling down together. being together even though we're too different. and i need a lot of patience because i've never had a boyfriend before even at 19. i want to take everything slow & meaningful (just like he did) my head disagrees but my heart says "yes"

I may go into things further upon further posting & replies.
CUTTING IT VERY SHORT-we knew eachother since secondary school being in the same form-I miss form so much! we were like a big family, our tutor was more like our mum than a tutor :') he's always had a thing for me.

I went round there 5 years after school had ended after getting into contact again & went round his house about 6-7 seperate times during the week-had a period of literally seeing eachother for about 2-3 months. the 3rd time we had our first kiss & general cuddles the 4th-7th we had more 'intimate' cuddles. I let him touch me. I never felt -that- connected to him, I felt he'd changed so much since secondary school, & didn't like him as much as he liked me but I never really did. I felt so touched at secondary school, when found out he liked me. We were similiar as were going through similiar things. He is stocky & has beautiful eyes...I can't go too deep on this I let my heart out in my previous posting & I don't have energy to try & repost it all again from memory.

I can't explain everything. But I've barely ever felt connected to anyone at all. I have 2 friends but I rarely see them when I do I enjoy it but wish there was more to my life. I feel lonely without a meaningful relationship. I have hobbies but feel like my soul is missing something. A boyfriend..Everyone needs love. I just want someone to love & who will love me back.

Me & this boy are finished. done. it's too complicated to get into but basically he realized how much i was messing him about. making him believe i liked him the same amount as he liked me. i acted differently at school was slightly more outgoing, into metal, & rebellious-though always for a good cause, so once i'd become more 'me' as i grew older i knew i wouldn't be what he wanted even when he'd said he doesn't want to settle down with someone who 'drinks & does drugs' or even someone who is 'loud & gobby' he said girls like that are fun to be around but not who he'd want to settle down with.

we're not on speaking terms anymore. there's nothing i can do. it's gone whatever was there; if anything. but sometimes i really miss him. i feel deep down we were meant to be together. I am on a dating site but I'm not interested in anyone else but I don't understand why. it's like i don't need him but deep down in my heart, I want to know him be with him live with him love him...

I feel as lonely as can be. extremely lonely. help..?

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Old Apr 25, 2013, 10:12 AM
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I'm sorry but I don't understand. If you didn't feel that much for him and whatever you felt is gone now then what is your question?
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Old Apr 25, 2013, 10:26 AM
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"we knew each other since secondary school "

Do you think what you miss is his friend ship?

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Old Apr 25, 2013, 02:47 PM
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"we knew each other since secondary school "

Do you think what you miss is his friend ship?

Yeah think it might be

I've never had the chance to get to know him as a friend without this other thing hanging over us-the fact he used to really really like me (but now doesn't lol)
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Old Apr 25, 2013, 02:50 PM
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I'm sorry but I don't understand. If you didn't feel that much for him and whatever you felt is gone now then what is your question?


something is still here.....

its hard to explain tbh
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