I dont know how to let go

I love him, i really do. for four years i have known him and in those four yars i grew to love him.... i never told him anything about my fellings for him because he liked my best friend.... this year me and my best friend sort of had a falling out and surprisingly the guy i love told me he liked me!!! i was so happy, i was the happiest girl on earth but i knew it wouldnt last..... he just used me for his own personal gain and i knew that he was using me but i still let him... i just wanted him to be happy. he is the one person that has hurt me the most in these past four yearss yet i still love him... now its time for college and he is moving away. i will never see him again.... i gave him a really long letter explaining everything i felt for him and other things and do u want to no what he said after he read it? "alright then homegirl i have to go to work now" and he drove off. as he drove off i went to my room and cried and cried and cried. out of all the ****** things he has said to me and done to me this was the worst. it was the FIRST time ever i poured out my heart and soul to him i was completely exposed.. and he just ignored it. i still love him and it hurts so bad to no i never got the chance to even say goodbye............

I know it's hard letting go of someone you love but trust me things will get better. You shouldn't have to put up with his bullcrap and you deserve so much better. If he really cared he would treat you so bad. Maybe going through this experience you might learn something. Hang in there and it takes time to heal.

Sorry I made a typo. I meant to say wouldn't. I'm typing way to fast.