[blackenedangel]

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I am having relationship problems with a few people and I am not sure what to do or who in the world to talk to. I am just needing a place to vent, so I hope you don't mind if I tell you what is my problem.
I got married 4 months ago and I told my father and he got pissed off at me and told me he was going to disown me just because he was not walking me down the aisle, my grandfather did, and I got upset. Less than a month ago I called him just to see what he was up to and he wants to start over again, I told him it was okay, but I was going to take it very very slow. Last Sunday I had a friend take me to his house without my husband knowing and had fun, but then I called my husband, Christopher, at home and told him where I was and he started yelling at me mainly because I lied to him when he asked me this morning where I was going, he yelled at my best friend on the phone and at me. i guess you could say I deserved it for lieing to me, but it still scared me since my father was abusive to me when I was little. Anyway, he apologized for yelling at me and I apologized for lieing to him. The next few days have been ruff, Christopher has been scared he is going to lose me, because my father don't like him and neither does my best friend (who took me over to my father's house), my father is a con and my best friend might as well be. I am a very gullible person and will usually do what others say just to fit in, but when it comes to my husband, I won't do as they say and leave him, I love him too much for that.
Christopher is really starting to scare me with all the questions he keeps asking me and all of them I tell him the truth, not because it's what he wants, but because I mean it. I love Christopher and I would do anything for him, but I am not sure what to do.
Christopher believes that I should not talk to my father because of what he did in the past, but I want a relationship with my father like I have never had and it's hard. I haven't exactly forgiven my father for what he did, but I am trying to forget about it. He also says that my father and my best friend (who took me to my father's house) are dangerous. I am not sure what to do. Right now I am talking to both on the phone and online only and will continue to do so until my mind is made up about them. I am so confused and so lost. I just want to please everyone.
If you have any questions or advice please fill free to let me know. <font color=blue>

<font color=red> Hugs and Kisses to you,
Brandi {blackenedangel} <font color=red>

You are all poets and I am on the side of death
Jacques Vaché

[rubyred]

"I just want to please everyone"

Why not try pleasing yourself instead?

Now there's a thought!

[blackenedangel]

You have a very good point, I never thought of that. Thank you! I will be sure to keep that in mind.
Hugs and Kisses to you,
Brandi

You are all poets and I am on the side of death
Jacques Vaché

[LadyDragus]

ok I did nto post because I was gonig to try and stay out of this..

But after talkign to you.. STAY AWAY from her.. she is trouble...

ok.. crawls back on her mountian..

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The Toa pours our everthing into life --
It is cornucopie that never runs dry.

It is the deep source of everything--
it is nothing and yet in everything.

[blackenedangel]

I am going to, I saw the "fire" in your eyes and in Christopher's eyes when I told you about her and I knew then that she was trouble, I have blocked her from my email and if she calls I am not going to answer the phone, so I am going to stay away from her. I knew she was trouble from the beginning and I can no longer be around that stuff, since I am trying to behave myself in every way possible. Thank you for caring, it means a lot to me!
Hugs and Kisses to you,
Brandi

You are all poets and I am on the side of death
Jacques Vaché

[LadyDragus]

well that is what friends are for..



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The Toa pours our everthing into life --
It is cornucopie that never runs dry.

It is the deep source of everything--
it is nothing and yet in everything.

[blackenedangel]

Sending kitten hugs and kisses to you!
Hugs and Kisses to you,
Brandi "meow"

You are all poets and I am on the side of death
Jacques Vaché