need help to take decision

this holiday it seems like everyone not bothering to talk with me, i am the one who starts chatting now, i don't want to bother anyone who doesn't want to speak with me. and i am starting to have black and white thoughts about them.
i am that kind of people who do nothing except setting in home at holiday, so i dont go outside or meet people.
so i don't know if should just disappear from there life for a while and see what they will do, or should i just ignore them like they do with me, i don't like this ideas but i don't want to force anyone to be my friends.
what do you think i should do?

Amazed no one has replied. In my view, the adage is 'to have a friend, be a friend' but, and a big but, you can reach out just so many times. I know. Friends, real ones, reach out. I lost all mine, through my depression. I would in your position, say Hi, what you doing today ? Sometimes friends feel neglected too. Make an effort, touch base with them. Then, if they rebuff you, were they really friends at all ?

How do you feel, about just being honest with your friends about how you feel?
Disappearing to see what one would do, doesn't sound too enjoyable. Neither does, ignore me, I ignore you back.

Hope the holiday gets better for you.

i am doing my best to speak with them, i am always honest with them, and i tell them how i feel, but they doesn't seem to understand that i am really not alright this days.
i dont want to have negative thought about them but i think they have their own real friend so they doesn't need me, but then again when i try to speak with them i feel they are speaking with me normally, then ignore me, i am just not sure how they think
should i just ask how they are, and don't bother them with speaking about other things?