[morning8glory]

I sent my mom the nice letter and before it arrived at her home I got a letter from her . I was afraid to take a change on it and open it so it sat here a few days . I finally got the strength up to open it and was pleasantly suprised it was very nice. She got my nice letter and left a message on the telephone machine.
One thing that is funny is that I write to avoid her calling us but she calls every time I write a letter or she calls to let me know she has not heard from me.
I decided to fall back to post card notes and sent her a note after her last phone message.
Still afraid to get too close.
My dad is another matter I wish I could afford to call him every day.
He is fun to talk to. He was not around much when we were kids working and playing baseball and drinking and later running after women. I rarely had any long talks with my dad.
I loved him but he was just my dad.
Now I can talk with him as if I would a mother or a women. I can tell him any thing and every thing.
We talked about sex today he always says a funny thing today he said what he used to do all night takes him all night todo.
He use to really get up set with my moms bad house work or undone house work and he often cleaned house when home and he told me today to let my house work go and get out side on the nice days. I said that sounds good dad but my house is screaming for attention and he said let it scream until it goes hoarse.
Morning8glory

[Zenobia]

I have been letting the answering machine pick up all my calls. I have no desire to talk to my Mom. She brings so many bad things out in me. Let me rephrase that, When I talk to her I fall into old programing so easily. I always feel miserable afterward.

I am proud of myself though. She e-mailed me asking if it would be all right for them to come over at the end of the month. I told her no. I wasn't it a metal health position to see her right now. I am working on to much and don't want it to be interfered with.

Zen

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Fall down seven times, get up eight--Buddhist Qoute