Confused

I thought I always shared my thoughts and how I feel. But, now I feel lonely and sad. When I tried to retrospect, I realised I keep what hurts me within me. I hardly share how I feel when I'm sad. I do communicate that I'm hurt but when other person doesn't give a crap I recoil into my shell.

its so difficult when you keep your feeling bottled up inside......if you are hurting is there anyone you can talk to about your feeling......a family member....a trusted friend.....or maybe a therapist you can talk to or counsellor???........sending you a hug......x

You can always talk on here....and will find excellent support from people.....x

I want to see therapist but don't have money for sessions.

I've tried talking to few, but no one understands. They think I create mountain out of molehill and even worse they think I don't mean what I say. I'm jumbled up.

Keep posting here. We will listen.

Few days back I was excited, very excited. It was like my wishes are finally coming true. I was looking forward to new life. And then it all tumbled down, down in one single second. Now, I'm back to where I always have been. I did inform my family, friends that nothing new is happening but I couldn't really share how I'm spending my time crying out of sadness of broken dreams. How much shattered I feel deep inside me...
All just listened to the bad news I've given, told me don't worry it is matter of month or two and you will again get the opportunities. No one really came to me, talked to me, asked me if I'm fine. It didn't touch anyone. After-all, it is my life plan that is shattered and I've to rebuild them. How it impacts anyone else, why should I matter to anyone....

You can spin this to yourself anyway you like, tell yourself it didn't happen because I didn't want it to, that's not true. You are fooling yourself if you try to make yourself believe that. We had been close to meeting up now or talking properly for the last 3 months, but we still haven't. All I said is this can't go on forever, we've been playing this game now for the last 4-5 years, we can't do it over and over again and getting nowhere. If you had wanted to meet up we could have done it by now easily, you could come round right now if you like, as I said i'll always talk to you, I've always cared about you. It's very difficult though when you keep pushing people away, even you admit that you do that. There's only so much of that someone can cope with before they've had enough, yes I know I wasn't perfect but I would never have given up on you if you still wanted me around. If you keep pushing harder enough even the most stuck thing would eventually move. It was all vague promises that something might happen but as soon as I started saying ok when we meeting up then you'd ignore me. You can come and see me if you want to, I would love to see you but if it's really not going to be happening then we need to be sensible about this and stick with the decision. So, if you do want to salvage something with me then come and see me. otherwise look forwards.

I'm sorry. I feel there is mistaken identity here. I wish whoever you are mentioning here, they come to see you. It is easy to lose but difficult to keep.

Really sorry, that was meant for the general rant (no response) thread. I can see how that confused you a bit. I'll be more precise with my posting in future but in the meantime apology tended.

Never mind. But, if someone is so important in your life don't lose them for false ego. If they don't take first step, you do