[Yismymindblank12]

People blow people suck, no wants to be nice no one cares unless you got something they want. I am consumed by this hateful city and society. I hope I can close my eyes and not see this ever again. I don't care what bad **** befalls on me. As long as I don't get to open up give any care I'm ok. **** them I don't care now. Being stir crazy sick and sore physically all the time. Miserable and negative the two edged sword is you are aware of your surroundings and have intelligence who is and who isn't real. I hate being a dude expected to follow stupid rules to get a girls attention. If you are all into games go play monopoly or mariokart. I don't care for your crap you try to put on me saying I need to be this or that, because I gave you my all of who I am as a person. You don't see anything you just want to always look pretty and look good for everyone else because you are full of low self esteem and want people to feel bad as you. I hate people they aren't healthy ever normal never existed my life is a lie and being told what I should do about it doesn't accomplishes anything. Lame advice, lame friends, lame people, stuck trying to be positive as possible and being told you aren't this or that and then when I do whatever is needed to help myself I am still being told in my city I am not positive enough and they go complain how they guy or girl doesn't like them or they are lonely. This is a load of crap tell me the truth I don't need this anymore. I don't even go outside because how much I hate people. I don't have any trust in people not even my parents or anyone. Why am I supposed to be the one to pick up all the pieces or everyone else's crap when I never asked for it and never cared for it, but no people expect me to be casual friend they can throw their troubles on me. That's emotional abuse I don't like anyone because everybody does it especially my mom. I can't take it we are all dead in this broken world. I don't want to be here now. I hate it yeah I am negative today, because I've waited to long and demanded more than enough to get anything I deserved from working hard being there. Actually paying attention looking out for any of my friends well being and all I get is. Have a nice day I don't care. People can go die for all I care, love don't exist the only thing it's being alive is the noose it's hung on by the media who doesn't care to show people that we are caddy and lifeless and don't care to tell you the truth. Lies need to stop for me to get anywhere, people need to stop being lazy, and being halfassed friends for me to help them. I don't care. I don't love and plan not to. I just am so close to closing my heart again and leaving it shut for a long time for the second time. I know how to do it and I'm not afraid to do so.

[curley]

Hi YismyMind. Not sure you were really asking for advise, if you are I would have no idea where to start!
I am figuring you feel lied to, taken advantage of and played. I am sorry and I hope you have figured a way out of the hell you feel you are in.
Have you ever heard the saying " You teach others how to treat you" Think about that in your relationships... it may help...I don't know

[Yismymindblank12]

Damn, I was right I go through soo much abuse just to be friends with this person. I even lost my ****ing sanity for nothing. False promises lies and ********. God DAMMIT I ****ing hate people I just want to blow my brains out. I ****ing tell every ****ing woman off tell her she a ****ing hoe ****ing ***** she aint' **** no one **** to me anymore. I'm tired ****ing tired. Don't need this seriously stop! Isn't honesty ever going to exist **** her

[Yismymindblank12]

I don't need a patronizing talk down, I just want to at least have this crap stop. Done being a commitment phobe because I have no choice in this matter. ****, if you trust someone you are putting the gun loaded and the trigger to your head. That's how it works in this world especially women they take no prisoners. I'll become transgender, not out of only choice, I've wanted to be a woman deep down, but damn I don't care how rough it gets for some women I'll blow the doors off the stereotypes and kill double standards. I will nuke every double standard and prove to the world if we are ever to survive as a species especially in a post modern society. We better grow up and require children to be learning how to respect people, human dignity, and above all honesty. It needs to be very mandated. I am done with this lying, from everyone. I can't stand waking up knowing I have to hide all the time. That's why people get depressed and kill themselves, because of people aren't caring or trusting and above all respectful. It's me me me, the only people who are giving for pure sake of genuine caring and giving get beaten to death and shunned. Then people who cheat lie and steal from others get ahead. I hope this world has what it deserves. I'm out

[Psnoodle]

You know what's jacked...the world is full of takers. And I forget that's what this country was founded on...taking from others. At some point you will have nothing left to go...or it sounds like our done giving. Why are people takers and users?

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