My boyfriend lied to me, and when I caught him.. He left me even I am pregnant

I'm in a relationship with him for 2 years & 4 months.. We lived in for a year.. but now we live separately.. I am pretty sure I love him and he loves me so much! We never fight too long, we talk things over and everything we'll be back to normal.. My boyfriend is from a broken family, he didn't finish schooling, he doesn't want to find a job, he just rely to his sister who is a doctor in the USA, last but not the least his life is focused on video games..

He said to me he found a job October 2013 and he will start by November and I was so happy for him, believing he is now growing up as a man.

So November is here, he started working! Wow! He is txting me everyday saying 'I'm on my way to work', 'It's my lunch break I have lots of deadlines to finish', I'm on my way home and it's traffic' and so on.. I am really convinced he is working.. But time comes, December 2013 I announced I am pregnant, and his reaction is not good at all. But after a week, he said sorry for his reaction and supported me from that day.. He came with me in my first ob check up and he saw our baby's heartbeat.. He even made me think of our baby's name and we decided to name it after his initials RJ (Ramon Joshua) So we ended up Ram Jayce.. He seems excited after seeing baby's heartbeat..

But when he's not with me.. I noticed he's not txting me as consistent as before.. He doesn't bother If I am waiting till pass 12 midnight just for me to know if he arrived home safe.. When he comes here and visits me, I will cry to him and say I have an instinct he is doing something unusual and he will look me in the eye and say he's not lying and he loves me and baby so much.. There is no way for me to fool you, what for? he said.

But I really have an instinct that there's something wrong..

One night, I am so fed up.. waiting every night for a lame texts.. So I texted his aunt who lives with him as a guardian pass 12 midnight and I asked if he is already home coz I am tired of waiting for him! And I told her I am pregnant.

She replied and I was devastated saying, 'He's not yet home, I don't know what to do with him anymore he doesn't want to study, and he doesn't have a job. He never had a job, he's just at home during the day and will go somewhere at night and will go home pass 12..

I checked his email and some gaming accounts and traced he has been playing Online Video Games while pretending he is working..

After knowing everything, but I didn't give him a hint. i know it already.. When he called me and I asked him.. "Why did you lie to me? How can you do this to me and to my family?"
At first, he was denying it.. until the point I vent out.. saying I loved him as a whole and yet this is all I get? My family and I trusted you!
I started crying..

Then.. when everything I said sync in to him.. He admits that he doesn't have a job.. He did that bcoz he is ashamed of himself.. coz I do all the expenses, and he is shy to my parents..

I sense that he has a problem within himself.. He is full of insecurities.. lowest self esteem.. he questions why he even exist..

and that was the last time we talked..
The next day, he's totally gone.. ran away.. hide..
Nothing.. No txt, no call.. deactivated Facebook..
It's been 2 months now since he ran away..
I know he loves me, but I don't understand whats on his mind..
I accepted him as he is, why does he need to lie for a long time?
Please I need advice, I am so depressed.. I am pregnant, and we never spoke to each other..
I thought giving him time and space will help him, but it seems were getting worse..

Is he ashamed for all the lies? Or he is just running away from the responsibility as a father? or it can be both?

Hello, BlessedGirl, and welcome to Psych Central! Of course, I am only hearing one side of the story, so I can't say what is going on in your boyfriend's mind. But if he is gone and hasn't been in touch in two months, then I'd certainly think he is running away from his responsibilities. He still sounds immature, and if he lied to you about having a job, then he is not trustworthy either.

I'm not sure he is ashamed of his lies. As I say, I don't know what he is thinking. Right now, though, I think you need to see what you can do to make plans for yourself and your little one. Would your family be supportive? I don't think you can count on his coming back. I hope he will, but......

I wouldn't count on him coming back either. It sounds like he has so many issues to work through. :-( My heart aches for you and your unborn child. I've had two boys without the help of a man, though, and it is possible! This child will be the joy of your life! For now focus on that. If he comes back, he comes back, but right now you need to take care of yourself and your precious baby. Best of luck to you!

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Blessedgirl21, You can wait and see if he comes or not. I would like to tell you to do something like informing him that you promised yourself to ruin his every steps of his life till he returns for good.