no more

I'm not going to say I'm polyamorous anymore, poly people are giving me the truth it won't happen, I'm an idiot. I'm done trying and working for something hopeless. I want to die, I don't want to be here working hard for nothing. No more ignorance no more explaining no more trying no more. I'm done and lost all patience. I'm pissed off, I hate people I truly do. Today I'm hurting, because nothing happened in particular, I just lost all hope of anything to work with polyamory. Everyone assumes it's or the other, I can't be what I want. Then why do people do it and it happens, so I guess it's fake people are stucked and bound so staying single is much better than being *****ed at and being apart of stigmatizism and stereotypes. I hate people, they are stupid, and enjoy to choose stupidity and be heartless. So I guess, I'm the **** up crazy **** dude who doesn't know ****. I put the effort in learning and I get nothing, because people are stupid and everywhere. I don't care who I piss off on here. I'm trying to vent if you don't like it get the **** out and don't reply. I'm fed up. I don't care to argue. I'm hurting respect that. I'm pissed off.

Sorry you're having a rough time.

First, hugs, because you sound like you need them.

Second, I've been where you are. Your not alone. My advice, follow what you want. For me, I couldn't take it anymore and haven't gone back because it was very damaging on me (wrong people), but I'm still friends with many who are still poly.

I couldn't get over the manipulation and the burried jealousy. In my mind that's not suppose to be there. As for people knowing, I kept it to close friends and people who found out. But even my sister called me a slut to my face.

Pm me if you want to talk.