No patience

Is it such a crime? to desire to be a kid be an adult enjoy life as a young kid at the same time, being responsible of your job and every responsibility as an adult? Is it such a crime that I have to love a person the way someone else expects me too? Is it a crime to want to be poly when I'm not being disrespectful? Is it so wrong to want to be in love with in a relationship with 2 females? Is it wrong to believe I believe I'm a woman, but I'm a man, happy with my masculine body, but want to be around women in a group emotionally, sexually, spiritually in a loving relationship? I don't know, I'm tired, being in a place, where you have to be all or nothing. I can't stand this mindset that women always have the choice and power nothing is ever mutual anymore. Where not caring and disrespect is supposed to get you respected and loved that's not deserved. Either you got to be the prince charming or princess bride or you're just a *****. I find it so frustrating, people's intent is so skewed and perverted in the way what they think they know they really don't understand what love is. If I pick a person I respect it's because it's the individual not the body not the personality is the whole person. I just want to be me, I want to be around people, I can be poly, and not assumed some dude who loves sex or the people I date slut shame category. I find it so infuriating people want to use you and call you a slut, but don't choose to understand ****. I feel so alone surrounded by people who just want superficial stuff, lie to your face in a heartbeat if they feel they aren't interested instead of honesty. I felt even as if I got the post op stage in my life, relationships would get shittier, because now I am getting cat called by guys and things be much harder. I find it so infuriating. I just want to enjoy life be left alone and be myself. Explore the world alone, and just be happy what I have without people bothering me I need space.

Yismymindblank12, I think you have the right to be who you want to be as long as you do not hurt people. Be the person you want to be. Live the life you want. Others need to accept you for who you are.

The people you pick to have in your life is all that matters. If you all are in agreement as to what you want to do with your sexuality, it's no one else's business. It is always difficult to find understanding with people that have no idea how it feels to be you. Science gets it... it will take longer for the general public. I am not poly but I have an understanding of why the brain wants what it wants.