[x_BabyG_x]

I'm going through a hard time with an opiate addiction at the moment an I've realised I have been distancing myself from near enough everyone in my life.

The thing is, I genuinely believe it's because people are arseholes!!

I had a friend who had a total blowout with me over text yesterday because of something I didn't do, then she started ranting about how I 'don't value our friendship' (what? Since when?!!), I've shut my partner out because he's emotionally abusive and he brings out the most terrible anxiety in me.

I've realised I've wanted to spend time on my own in general, not
replying to messages etc... And it's because I can't handle people and their lies, ******** and how they hurt me right now. Let me be selfish for a change!

Am I doing the right thing whilst trying to attempt to deal with this internal emotional storm? (Im also bipolar). I'm not sure I it's the drugs that are making me this way, or I'm just noticing that people are selfish and insensitive. Is it selfish of me to want to just up and leave and move by myself where I know I'm safe?

Think I just wanted to rant really.

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[Travelinglady]

Rant away! I think the most important thing is to try to figure out if these people are truly selfish and unhealthy for you.

That said, to have relationships we need to give and take. Are you not wanting to give--to give the time to keep relationships going?

Of course, it could be that you do need some time away to access your life.

[hvert]

Taking time off for yourself is fine, especially when you are dealing with stuff that really makes it hard to deal with other people's drama.

No idea if this is applicable in your case, but I finally figured out that there was something wrong with the way I developed relationships. Every 3-4 years, I find myself wanting to 'dump' most of my friends. I always thought there was something wrong with me. There is, but it's not what I thought. I cultivate unhealthy relationships, usually with very selfish people. Wanting to avoid these people was actually a good sign

Good luck with your recovery.