Lacking honesty

I keep trying to act like everything is okay when it is not. It is really painful inside of me that I haven't spoken up to probems with family members. I have internalized everything. Nothing feels right or good. I have done it so long now I don't know how I can make it right.

Hello, PianogirlPlays. Making it right would start with talking to your family to begin the process of getting you the help you need to get better.

I wish you well.

I do the same thing. It's hard not to since when I do say something I'm accused and criticized. It continues to happen regardless - so I don't. You didn't directly ask for advice but I'm going to mention: if you haven't figured out why you do this like I have, maybe that is something you can do first before planning your next step.

Its very hard to open up and speak your mind when you have kept everything in for so long...

Have you looked into getting therapy ? Its very helpful in learning how to build self confidence and self esteem .

keep posting here you will find lots of support