[sobergirl]

Hi friends! Here's some background info. I met my husband almost seven years ago and we've been married for two. I told him about my mental health and eating disorder issues from the very start. I was in college when we met, but both my problems have kept me from working. Since we met I have been in treatment three time for my eating disorder. Plus multiple ECT treatments and mental hospital stays. My depression is very bad right now. I just sit all day watching TV. I barely wear street clothes, want to leave the house, shower or want to do anything with him. He sees a lump on the couch when he gets home from work and on weekends. I saw my pill doc yesterday and we have a couple things we are going to try.

The guilt over not being a real wife or friend to him is overwhelming. The other night he implied thinking I'm not trying hard enough. That it can be too much for someone to handle, and ppl may just need a break from me. Finally that it may be that I just need to get out and do things. Be more motivated.

The thought that he feels this way hurts and breaks my heart.

I feel he could have a much better and happier life with someone other than myself.

Can anyone relate to this? What did you come up with?

Thanks for reading this

Peace

I can relate.

I don't know how my husband deals with it.

If you have a partner that has no experience with mental illness they will all, at some point, say or think that you're not "trying" hard enough.
The things that we are going through, can never be fully explained.

I told my husband that I would not blame him at all if he just quit. There would be no anger from me because he also deserves better.
I don't feel guilt for what he's going through because I am not doing this DELIBERATELY. I do feel bad, however.

Bottom line is if they choose to stay, we're very lucky. If they choose to go, we have to accept it.