[Yismymindblank12]

I seriously am enjoying this, being alone at home making music like I used to do all the time. I think I pushed so many people away on accident, they think I don't care. In actuality I don't care interacting with people I don't like it and find it tiresome and frustrating.

I don't know why this is, even if the relationship is good and I'm content with it. I just hate talking to people. It's annoying when people want your attention and me being a hermit many people think I hate and ignoring them. I just want to be left completely alone and isolated, at the same time enjoy some outdoors and be interactive too.

Mostly I choose to be alone, because it's where I'm most comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time.

Should I even care about contacting people? Should I even worry about this? I don't know many people don't talk to me either. I don't know what to do. I just feel my problem is that I give off the wrong vibe, but I don't know what's best for me in this situation. I'm very emotionally lonely and physically isolated than I've ever been in my life for the 2nd time for a long period of time.

Everyone is out doing something all the time, I'm either at worked, talking to myself, playing videogames or making music. It's like life is good with the simplicity and I hate how people ignore me. So I don't bother talking to them, it's like people who have no time to talk to me. At the same time I try to do it back, but it hasn't helped it makes it much worse.

So I don't know

Hello Y: Yes, I understand completely the desire... the need... to be alone. I spend as much time alone as possible. I've never seemed to get along with people. Just as you say, I've often wondered if I give off some vibe that turns people off. It used to bother me when I was young. However, as I've grown older, I've come to value my aloneness. I'm married & I love my wife. But even with her, there's only so much togetherness I can tolerate.

My one social outlet is the internet. And I enjoy being on-line. But the same people I correspond with on-line I would probably not want to be with IRL. And I suspect we probably wouldn't get along well anyway.

I don't know why some people end up being hermits. (I often refer to myself as an "urban hermit".) But that is the direction in which my life has taken me. And I'm content it has turned out that way.

[Yismymindblank12]

I definitely agree, but I think recently it's becoming more intolerable. I've been deciding to be more social and now asking people to hang out later. So far nothing as usual.

[Yismymindblank12]

I'm screaming in anger now, because I want to break up the silence. Man why I can't I live like my friends. **** me