[BubonicPlague]

All of the sudden I'm beginning to feel like I don't care anymore.

graduating early. People that I normally talk to are now leaving, and I won't be able to see them again (it's not like I ever got that close to really know them enough for me to be able to hang though, yet I still feel a little sad about it.).

Before I was told by mom that people come and go throughout our life, we keep moving on.

I still have a few others left to talk to, but where I go to school at, people usually work hard to graduate early and catch up on credits. I don't know when they're leaving.

Now I just don't care any more about friends. I've been taking an interest in talking to the social workers and teachers at my school instead of going to lunch with a few girls that I slightly know. I've only been with them only a few times, and I don't really hang out with them. I always thought I would be the one to have fun doing things together, but things just don't work out when you daydream of them happening, it's just not reality. It just wasn't what I wanted it to be.

So now I've been making up excuses to go and talk to the adults instead, they're easier to talk to and I've been wanting to tell them what's been going on with my life with things bothering me.

In a way it's kind of better to talk to them than the kids at my school. Okay, so get this, my school is for troubled students who have problems with drugs, dropping out, behind on credits, and teen pregnancy. I always hear kids talking about doing drugs such as smoking Marijuana, and getting high. They also talk about getting into fights, going to wild parties, and impregnating other school girls. It's like I don't really want to get close with people because I feel like I'm going to be pulled into what they do, and I don't want to be a part of that.

[Ripose]

I'm not sure what you need to hear but it appears you are on the right track by talking to the people (adults) that should not draw you into trouble. However there must be some students who think as you do and it would be great if you could find one or two that could become friends. The adults you talk to now will not likely be available to you when you leave school but 1 or 2 close friends might be.

It is highly commendable that you wish to change your life and I wish I had thought the same way when I was still in school.