I've thankfully come a long way as far as relationships go, and think I'm now capable and emotionally okay enough to make friends. I do seem to be doing so now, even though making friends is a scary, new world for me. However, there are other worries that come along with that I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about in real life. I feel embarrassed to ask, but can someone private message me about this if they'd like to help? I don't feel comfortable writing it out.

[kaliope]

i have always had a hard time with friends. i moved a lot growing up so never got to establish long term relationships and then when we finally settled down my first best friend really hurt me so i vowed that would never happen again and never trusted another person again. i am only now letting people in my life again thirty years later. i was playing free association a few weeks back and the last word was best friend and instead of negative thoughts and feelings a name popped in my head and i had a panic attack over the idea that i had let a person into my life. i will pm you.

[Fuzzybear]

....... I'll PM you

(this is scary for many of us. And with good reason