[The Fox & the Hound]

Apparently, one of my friends really doesn't want to be my friend. She never has actually said anything to me, but she implies it. Ignoring me when I see her in the halls. Ignore my questions. Just doesn't talk to me. Takes forever to respond to my texts(& she is always on her phone.). It just hurts, a lot. Heck, I planned a Christmas party this Friday, & I told her one of my friends [hers to], might not be able to sleepover. She then told me "I think I'll just go home too.But, if others are coming, I'll stay."Yeah, I their are times where I'll prank her,I wouldn't even call it pranking, just joking around with her. So, that could be it. But...other do that too her to.

What I do think it is,is that I decided to tell her about my Depression.At first, when I first told her, she was considered,& seemed to care. After that? She was totally rude about it. She was like "You have food, family, friends, a house, & a great life! Why are depressed? Be happy, because there is no reason to feel this way!"

Ugh. It just... makes me want to end my life. She's the reason why I handbag tried it yet. Suicide seems SO reasonable right now. I feel like no one gives a **** about,& that they'd care less if I killed myself.... If only I had something more the OD, that'd be awesome.

[kaliope]

so why is this person a friend when she treats you so poorly? if you are willing to look in other places, you will see that there are others who care.

[hamster-bamster]

I think you need immediate professional intervention. To become suicidal over an issue that is so insignificant and over a response that was totally predictable is very alarming. I would go inpatient to be evaluated right now. And I would take this post, because your language - that suicide seems SO REASONABLE - is very concerning. What you verbalized later - that you think that nobody would care less if you killed yourself and that OD'ing would be AWESOME - is fairly typical for your age group, but that suicide seems REASONABLE sounds very dangerous. And I would not call a volunteer-staffed hotline - I would go straight to the closest ER for evaluation by qualified professionals.

[Bill3]

I agree with hamster in strenuously urging you to ask for help. I differ with hamster though about what happened with your friend. I think it often happens when young that a rupture with a close friend feels crushing, shattering, and it sounds like that is what happened here. You were so close with her that you saw her as a main reason for living, and then she spoke as she did to you. You have valid reasons to be hurting right now, but there is help for the pain.

Please: ask for help to overcome the pain and to begin to heal.