[C101]

The relationship ending was inevitable. After the last violent outburst. But I feel sad. Really really sad. I don't understand why. I'm looking forward to him not being here. His stuff not being here (although he tells me he's not taking most of it!). I think I'm sad because I'm scared. Because I'm so used to being angry that I don't know how to feel. Sad because he really doesn't love me or care for me. Sad because I failed (my marriage). Sad because there was potential, but he changed. And was no longer the person I once knew. Sad because I gave up my friends for him, & now I have no-one. Sad because my kids deserved better! Just sad. And scared for the future. Not looking forward to the arguments to come.

[PianogirlPlays]

I understand. It is always sad that there are missed chances and poor endings but you never know what the future might hold.

[tallulahxoxo]

I'll bet there's a miracle right around the corner for you. (:
I'm sorry you're hurting. /:

[Rose76]

It is said by some that it takes a good year to start to get over a breakup . . . a year of going through the four seasons and all the holidays as no longer part of the couple that you once were. Expect to feel sad for a while. But that doesn't mean you will never feel better. Grief runs its course.

You say he is "no longer the person I once knew." That person probably never really existed. You have come to know him for real, and he's not who you once thought he was. He probably didn't change in his essence. Your understanding of him changed as you gained more experience and insight.

Anxiety about the future is totally normal. But, most likely, you will cope better than you think you will. We usually do.

It sounds like this relationship had to be terminated. Be glad you got that accomplished. That's a lot of work you've done to get this far. Thank yourself.