[deer1966]

I try and I try and my anxiety gets so bad I get a hot and cold, my mind races so fast i can hardly speak and if i do manage to say something I do not remember the conversation. and the conversation went well. I was not looking to date any one, I figured if the choices i made were that bad stop choosing then I ran into some one and hit it off immediately. things were going to well and i had to slow it down. now it has really slowed down and my first reaction is what did i do wrong . I need to talk to him but can not muster the courage as hard as I try. but should I be dating someone and still feel lonely? is it all me and my imagination? why can I not spit it out? anyone else feel this way ?

[CANDC]

Maybe someone did not want to slow it down and grow a relationship at a comfortable pace. Some people don't even think about relationships; they are just looking for a flash in the pan. To me that person going away is a blessing in disguise. They took themselves out of it but left you without an open wound, just an inner ache.

Some of your questions would be good starters for a therapy session.
Here are some Psych Central articles, blogs and posts about anxiety and relationships.
Psych Central - Search results for How anxiety affects relationships