[Macd123]

Okay so I haven't thought about her much today - she may be losing her grip on my inner core. The irony is that I have mixed emotions about her fading picture. For months she has been this terrorizing shadow making the smallest motion a burden. I am thankful that she is no longer clinging to the surface of my skin and that I can actually dance with somebody else. I am also sad that the opportunity to spend quality time with her has been spent. Eventually, her voice and face will be buried deep in the compose of my mind. From time to time I will probably remember her but it will be a quick glance between sandwich bites. So what is this inside that makes everything eventually so trivial. I'm sure that a year from now this whole traumatic episode will just make me smile at how I made her my savior. She will no longer be a saint but just another face on the bus. Unfortunately this whole episode has made me crave my isolation - never again do I want to be at the mercy of something I can't make happen. I'm too old - I might have a stroke. So do I say goodbye to my emotions and play dead for what's left of this journey - this outcome is as probable as any. Ciao.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi Macd123

I am really sorry to hear that you are in so much pain and have been hurt.

"So do I say goodbye to my emotions and play dead for what's left of this journey - this outcome is as probable as any."

Please don't choose this as an option.

I know it may appear as a desirable one right now.

But it won't serve you well.

So I am glad that you have asked.

I'd like to give you some other choices to consider in lieue of this one.

Please can you take some time to read this:

Coping with the End of a Relationship | World of Psychology

Surviving Your Breakup | Psych Central