[damage_case1987]

I suffer from Haphephobia. I hate touching people or getting touched by. I stay away from society and havent met any of my family since 15-16 years. I live in isolation. Will I die alone?

I cant imagine anyone loving me or touching me. I have never experienced love or any form of physical intimacy. Im 27 and I think I need to come to terms with living alone and sad.
If someone looks at me (coz im good looking) I just hyperventilate. I have such self hatred that even in my dreams I cant imagine or dont dare to imagine someone might like me.

BTW no one has ever approached me for friendship anyways so that doesnt help my self hatred.

[Ruftin]

(((DC))) I don't think you have to come to terms with living alone and sad. Find ways to push yourself a little at a time. Say hi to someone and run if you have to but at least it's something. Baby steps of faith can get you headed in the right direction. Just posting this shows that you have the potential to break out of your self imposed prison. Were not meant to live imprisoned in our fears. Were not meant to be alone. Please don't give up on you!

[*Laurie*]

Hello, What you've described sounds to me (at least in part) like a terrible depression. Have you, or are you able to, speak with a doctor?