[AbsurdBlackBear]

I feel utterly defeated and like there's no hope for me to ever find someone, so what's the point of going on?

I've been depressed for years now due to being lonely or due to relationships not working out, both due to the fact that I have avoidant personality disorder and social anxiety disorder. My depression does not seem respondent to treatment, which I assume is due to the fact that my depression is rooted in this loneliness and talking about it or taking medication isn't really going fix that. So yeah...I don't know what else to say, I feel like I'm way too deep down in this darkness and feel like I'm fading away.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((( bear )))))))))))

[Moogieotter]

Sorry bear. I was lonely until my mid to late 20s. Had to treat my depression first. Then I found love.

Good luck!

moogs

[~Christina]

Are you in Therapy ? I know that can be helpful.

[AbsurdBlackBear]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Are you in Therapy ? I know that can be helpful.

Yes I am. lol. As I said in the OP, my depression doesn't seem to be responsive to therapy which I think is due to the fact that my depression comes from my loneliness which therapy can't fulfill that void.

[~Christina]

Yes I saw that your treatment resistant. I know a few people that have APD and therapy has been helpful, I do know both had to research and find a T that has more training in PD's.

I hope you find something that helps

[Chummy]

I know the feeling and it can be so hard. I have the same disorders and also depression. I'm in my mid twenties and I don't see it getting better anytime soon. This loneliness, that feeling, it sometimes gets to much to bear. It hurts. I don't know what to do about it. Right now I just focus on therapy.

[avlady]

i remember a time in my life where i was so lonely i prayed every day for any kind of person to come into my life, i didn't care who they were or what they were, any nationality, age, gender, i just kept praying. those prayers took about a year to be answered, the reason i was so lonely was because i am schitzophrenic and had menstrual problems that wouldn't go away. well i ended up getting hit by a truck and got money from it. i never had a better time in my life not having to worry about money, it wasn't much but enough to get myself out there, quit my job too. in the end the money ran out, but i'll never forget the memories of especially being independant on my own. i wish i could go back and do it all over. i'm not rich now and we live on a fixe income but i will always remember being rich at one point in my life, it was such a great ride.

[AngstyLady]

I know you've heard this before (probably not just from me) but, you are still so young. You will meet someone, probably have more than a few true loves in your life. You have to try not to focus so much on it. There are more things to life than being in a relationship. Like helping the effort to reduce our carbon footprint, help with charity, donate blood, etc.