[kid_of_bp_mom]

Yesterday round noon, my mom got mad "cause of my bad attitude." Then she started yelling at me:

• 1st round: Yelled at me like she usually does.
• 2nd round (few minutes later): Came into my room again screaming, saying she was really pissed, wanted to slap me in the face, and also called me 4-letter words. Then went on for a while, including letting out the fact that she’s been having headaches and thinks there might be tumor or something in her head.
• 3rd round (few minutes later): Came in again crying/bawling and sitting next to me on my bed, so I had to hug her and say I was worry. She said she was sorry for not being able to control herself and taking it all on me. Then she kept bawling then suddenly stopped and smiled w/ a blank expression – that’s when I first felt she was crazy, like on the movies. Then she walked to my bedroom door, smiled blankly and extended a hand out to wave at me (our secret gesture,) I got really scared and started crying and asked what was she doing, she said she had a headache and wanted to go lay down on the living room couch. It creeped me out so she walked back and lay down on my bed for a few seconds then got up again and went out.
• 4th round (few minutes later): Came into my room looking like nothing had happened. I was very scared from what happened so was still crying, and when she saw that, she asked me why was I crying – now I really felt she was crazy. She hugged me, tried to comfort me, hummed some melody I don't know, which scared me more, then she asked if she could rest in my bed, I said okay, sat there for a while, then went to the living room myself.

About 30 minutes later, she got up and was looking mad again and didn’t talk to me. While she was sleeping, I had texted my uncle (who’s a doctor) and mentioned my mom’s mood swings and headache to him and he told me to get her to checkup the following day. I talked to my dad and asked him to tell her; she got mad when my dad told her and asked me what the heck did I tell my uncle (since she hates when people know about her problems.) I said I was just very concerned, especially because of 3rd and 4th round mentioned above, and as I had guessed - she said she didn't remember coming in those 2 times! But that didn't stop her anger, she just started yelling at me again saying it is always me pissing her off, cause her bad mood and depression, etc.

That night I was so scared that she might try to hurt me in my sleep that I left a dim light in my room. Around 2am, she got up and saw the light so came in and lay next to me and asked if I was scared of her, and that she'd never not love me or ignore me, etc. At this point I already didn't know what to do to not piss her off more, so I just pretended to sleep.

Next morning, I went out to run and went back to sleep like I always do. At around 9am (when I usually get up,) mom came into my room looking really sad and begged me to not ignore her, and that she was having a hard time breathing, and thinks she might not live. After that she went back to sleep and I started posting this, and a minute ago she went to the bathroom to throw up.

I'm very scared.

[healingme4me]

It's understandable how frightening it must be. As a family, are you in counseling? She may need a check up, sounds frightened for her own health, something could be happening or something is triggering.

Glad you've found PC.

[CANDC]

Welcome to Psych Central (PC). I am sorry you have suffer from abuse and erratic behavior from your mother. Does your mother have any family or friends that might be able to help? What therapy is she involved in or could be involved in to help her get meds to stabilize her condition and a therapist or social worker to help get a path for her life. You really are a survivor coping with all you are struggling through.

What safe places do you have like friends, family or relatives that might be available if you cannot cope with your mother or she gets violent with you again? Having a safety plan is important with such erratic behavior. Getting your mother to go to a doctor, any doctor might be a place to start and then hopefully get a referral. You really sound like you need a partner to deal with this.

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[CosmicRose]

My mom would have similar episodes where her behavior was very strange and often scared me. It became so often that eventually I started distancing myself from her more and more. My mom was not diagnosed and didn't take medication. I just had to stay away from her as much as possible unless she was in a rare good mood. I'm not sure what you should do, but you have your dad and your uncle for support if you need it.

[kid_of_bp_mom]

Originally Posted by healingme4me

It's understandable how frightening it must be. As a family, are you in counseling? She may need a check up, sounds frightened for her own health, something could be happening or something is triggering.

Glad you've found PC.

I've always thought she was just hysteric when she got mad, it wasn't until yesterday when I talked to my uncle that he told me my mom has bipolar disorder and he has subscribed meds for her before but she seems to think meds are bad and wants to fight it w/ her own willpower...

[kid_of_bp_mom]

Originally Posted by CosmicRose

My mom would have similar episodes where her behavior was very strange and often scared me. It became so often that eventually I started distancing myself from her more and more. My mom was not diagnosed and didn't take medication. I just had to stay away from her as much as possible unless she was in a rare good mood. I'm not sure what you should do, but you have your dad and your uncle for support if you need it.

I've been trying to distance myself from her too, but I'm also afraid that it might upset her even more. Every time when we'd be in the same room after fighting, she'd get mad again cause she thinks I look mad (just expressionless,) but if I stay in my room then she thinks I'm trying to avoid her...

[divine1966]

Sounds a bit like my dad. His moods don't change as rapidly but they still do. He is unpredictable. The only thing we can do is keep distance. He isn't taking care of it either. I am so sorry. Just be safe

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