[Aviza]

I am deeply in love with a man who reicks havoc on my life. Yes I am on SSD, for schizoaffective disorder, not taking meds, not hearing voices or anything but stressed.

My husband is a gambler, we are legally homeless, always broke, account always overdrawn. Oh btw it's 2:15 am, over 4 hours ago he sent my daughter and I back to room so he could play $25 on keno. I kept my daughter up, which she loved, until midnight waiting for his return, so he wouldn't disturb her sleep. Now mine is being disturbed.

Everything, everyone says leave. I am thinking hard about it, but I really do love him. He won't get help, dreams of being a world series of poker winner.

Poker is in his blood. His mom deals poker, her boyfriend, a former pit-boss, met her at a casino. The family plays constantly. I believe he should follow his dream, but not at the expense of life.

I cannot reach him, page him, nothing because his phone is with me, and the casino no longer pages people. I left him 3 days ago, only to return. Tonight I debate about contacting my mom, this is too much for me to deal with. She did say I could return, but how do you let go of love?

[Trippin2.0]

You don't have to focus on letting go of love, instead, hyper-focus on a different love.


The love a mother has for her child, a love that does what's best for that child no matter what. That kind of love can move mountains, draw your strength from there, and the rest of your mind and heart will follow suite.

oh my gosh, where to start. You are willing to take him as he is so love isn't in question. You have basically already made your decision.

The child(ren) however are another matter. Is this lifestyle fair to them? Is it a threat to them? These you DO need to consider

[I'm Worth It]

Originally Posted by Aviza

I am deeply in love with a man who reicks havoc on my life. Yes I am on SSD, for schizoaffective disorder, not taking meds, not hearing voices or anything but stressed.

My husband is a gambler, we are legally homeless, always broke, account always overdrawn. Oh btw it's 2:15 am, over 4 hours ago he sent my daughter and I back to room so he could play $25 on keno. I kept my daughter up, which she loved, until midnight waiting for his return, so he wouldn't disturb her sleep. Now mine is being disturbed.

Everything, everyone says leave. I am thinking hard about it, but I really do love him. He won't get help, dreams of being a world series of poker winner.

Poker is in his blood. His mom deals poker, her boyfriend, a former pit-boss, met her at a casino. The family plays constantly. I believe he should follow his
dream, but not at the expense of life.

I cannot reach him, page him, nothing because his phone is with me, and the casino no longer pages people. I left him 3 days ago, only to return. Tonight I
debate about contacting my mom, this is too much for me to deal with. She
did say I could return, but how do you let go of love?

Your #1 priority is your daughter!!!!! Bring her to your mother's house PERIOD. I suspect that your mother is concerned for her and your well being and continuing to live with circumstances you are in is unfair to your daughter and your mother. Your husband is an addict to gambling. He is being selfish and completely disrespectful to you and his daughter. You are not in love with him, you are in love with the person you want him to be. . .

[divine1966]

At this point who cares love or not love. You have to keep your kid up so he wouldn't wake her up because he gambles all night and will wake her up. Why are you and a kid are in a casino to begin with? He isn't following his dream by the way. He is an addict. He isn't even good at it! Or you wouldn't be broke and homeless! Please take care of your child and forget about him

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exactly, I agree with above. You need to place your child's welfare above all else. If this means walking away then that will have to be the necessary choice.

Incidentally, I see that you have suffered a great loss in your past. I'm sorry to see that. I find it difficult to bring up but the question must be asked. Is it possible that you fear another great loss? This one you are in control of whether or not that happens. It is possible this is why you want to hang on.

[profound_betrayal]

it's hard b/c your brain is trained to put up with this specific (unhealthy) reality.

Why not start small? Tell him you care for him but need some time away - try a week at your mother's first (or somewhere where you can RELAX, feel FREE, & think things through), then a month, then more! He needs to get his act together - this is 'toxic'

While away, think about what you would like for YOU? Do things with your daughter! Go out togerther, a park ...library (low cost stuff) a nice cafe for a cup of coffee. Spend time away from the chaos. You need to love him at arms' length if you can't let go, - b/c if you don't this WILL destroy you in the future. Where will you daughter be? She NEEDS you!!! - she doesn't have the other parent. Not really.

Start small, watch your self talk & get busy to help distract you. You can do it!