[jarajaramelon]

i made a compromise with my friend of 6 months not talking. we fight alot about the fact we aren't friends, it's especially me who brings up the fights, because i feel insecure about our friendship. i can't really explain why i do it, except that i feel like i wanna reach him somehow and then burst out. we are friends since we were 13, and we ar 17 now. and i have a crush on him since that moment too, i trusted him completely. when the trust was gone, at the moment he dated my friend, everything went wrong. he thinks i do it on purpose, making the fights. but i just want to be friends like before. i already forgave him for what happend long ago, because ye, it was long ago. but i still somehow made a sort of crack in our friendship. everytime i bring it up they think im jealous. no one understands me. he isnt a person that talks alot about his feelings. he's more someone who is constantly joking, but that sometimes makes me frustated when i wanna talk about something. i think he doesnt ask me how i am doing because i was depressed before, and he literally told me "i can't do this anymore" he was always there for me, altho he's not really a person that does that easily to people. i wanted to talk to him, show him i was differnt, talk about it, but he just thinks i purposely bring it up to make a fight. i dont know if our friendship is dead and how to bring it back. we dont really have much to do or talk about since we are not in together a friendgroup anymore, and he has a different kind of life now. and sometimes i doubt i can be in it.

[ChicaCupcake]

Does HE say you are still friends?

[jarajaramelon]

Originally Posted by ChicaCupcake

Does HE say you are still friends?

he didnt literally say we aren't or we are, but he didnt say we were not.
he just said that there was nothing to forgive. and he wishes me luck with the 6 months, he told me i should respect myself and love myself. i just notice it's different than before after all what happend. and after the 6 months, i want to do it well.

[popuri88]

If you're only friends why did you feel like you've forgiven him for dating someone else? Don't you think you're asking more than you should from a friendship?

I totally understand your hard time dealing with people and the need to have someone close who you can trust and cling to, but you talk about your friend as if he was your boyfriend...

I don't think this is very healthy. You need to understand the ties are broken and move on. You are awfully young to be wasting that kind of time pining over something that clearly won't happen.

[ChipperMonkey]

This is called "growing up".

You're getting a lesson in how friendships change. It's a hard lesson to learn but we all go through it.

Let this guy go.