You do know its friday, dont you?, he said

My married chiropractor asks me every friday what my plans are for the weekend. I say every friday I am not doing anything. (except for one friday when I celebrated my birthday. ) I am not doing anything because my friends have their man and children and are busy and I have no family here. I am alone. All the bad abusive men I have met and the one of two last ones, one who tricked me into a loveless marriage for a green card and abused me emotionally at same time.

My chiropractor use to ask me am I ready. Today I was so naughty that I answered my chiropractor I am always ready. He was "what?" and smirked a little. Did I really say that . I dont know what happened to me.

Today was the 4th time he asked me what I am going to do for the weekend. He said "what are you gonna do this weekend, you do know its friday, dont you?". It threw me a bit off balance. I said yes and smiled, that I know and again I had to say I am not going to anything. I said there is not much to do, that I have friends, but they are busy and so like..well its he truth. I didnt say I dont have any relatives here. Most of my relatives have passed away.

You do know its friday, dont you ? What does that mean? Should I have something to do or was he wanting to know what I should do?

You know, maybe it's just small talk.

This is the chiro who smacks your thigh, right? It sounds to me like you are interested in getting into a relationship with him.

I know he is married and I am not going there. I only wish to think he may like me and just that. Maybe its just small talk.

I used to feel a bit ashamed that I stopped making weekend plans awhile ago. Then I realized that's sort of one of the perks of not being able to work. I do what I want, when I want. I'm not a slave to the M-F 9-5 grind. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to be able to go back to work in the future. But in all, its nice to not have this chain around my neck where fun must be forced from Friday thru Sunday.

I like to do what I want when I want too. But would love to have someone to love and love me back and do things together. I am still healing from the trauma my xNP husband made me go through even its been 4 1/2 years since the cruel, shocking, "out of the blue" divorce. I havent managed to go NC with him because of being in denial and thinking I will survive and think its ok. But its not. I got to feel that its not ok again yesterday.

We shouldnt be ashamed not having something to do. Not everybody have someone to be with and sometimes life is just too much.

I dont think my chiropractor is meaning anything negative when he is asking. Maybe he just want to know if I am gonna do something. I dont want to think of myself as appearing boring to him just because of the fact I dont do anything.

Well, my friend got baby sitter for her son yesterday so we did go out in town. So I did do something anyway

Even if you don't go out you do something such as running errands or household projects. Everybody is doing something

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