[mulan]

I think I don't have enough judgment about what people say and what is going on around me. I find myself saying inapropriete things, that I understand other people don't like to hear and the stupidity in my logics and I am propeled to say them even so.
In this aspect I sometimes feel like a little child.
Yesterday in school after a teacher of mine claim the history I collected but didn't wrote (because I had to leave to a psychology apoitment) was bad written and needed to be rewriten and imediatly respond I didn't write it (he knew). But then the people that wrote it for me and did me that favor became upset. At first I didn't even think about that consequence, it just came out, I just felt like saying it.
In the end I felt bad because the ones who wrote it were very upset with me and I felt bad because I could say things like this feeling comfortable and without thinking about the consequences.
I know I don't live with my conscieness in this reality, but that is something only I know and detest.

[healingme4me]

Was it really so terrible to remind your teacher that you have others helping with the writing of your project? Was it truly so inappropriate to remind your teacher, a teacher that in front of the class told you that the writing was bad?

[mulan]

Maybe...
It was a different environment than a simple class. In fact the people that helped me were not other students as I am. And actually write those histories (patients medical records) is part of their job.
I just regret I was to quickly to give the answear like this has nothing to do with me, when was in part my fault (cause I told them I would do it and I didn't have enough time to complete my task) and they did me that as a favour. Without even thinking how would them feel.
And in the end one of the girls came talk to me, really, really upset...it was only then I realized what I did, and felt bad about it.

[barbella]

You sound like a kind and sensitive person who doesn't like to hurt people. Sometimes we say things without thinking. When I do that, I can hurt others too. I think you were under time pressure (needing to leave for your appointment) and the teacher startled you with that comment and you reacted. You didn't mean to hurt anyone but it happened. I agree with healingme4me that the teacher could have brought up the topic in a different way and also privately.

[mulan]

It is just the way he is. I likes to tease people and sometimes is hard to tell if he is teasing you or actually saying what he thinks without good intentions. We were just seven people around a table and he was distribuing the work we had to do that morning. I shouldn't have take it so deeply.