[black-roses]

Hi Vanessa,

I hope this helps you and gives you some understanding. If there is anything here that you don't quite understand, ask me and I'll explain to the best I can. Everything I'll write down in point form ok.
Some of what I write you will probably know, but I put to paper everything that comes to me. Ive email you three things. Two are about your animal spirit guides which are your favourite animals. The other is about your Chinese Zodiac. 1996 is the year Rat. I read through these and they are very fitting for you. Can I add to the that if you don't own a cat maybe get one for yourself. Even a toy cat. You will understand if you read the Cat Spirit Animal attachment.

Now there are three things holding you back from your journey and pathway. That being your mother, your male friend and denial.

You're right on cue, you are very strong, you know the direction you have to take, but it's those three things that are holding u back. Until you can break from that you not going to move forward. I feel you know this but needed confirmation.

You have so much strength, a strength beyond words, but I feel you don't realise that.
The strength I felt from you was almost overwhelming but it a good way.

Your male friend. I feel the hold on you there is spiritual and it needs to broken, but I can't tell you how to do this. I feel it's something that you need to find how break and then break it.

Portugal - something good for you is going to happen there! What I don't know, but is going to be an advantage. It's not going to be something completely obvious though. At the that time you probably won't even be aware of it. Sorry, I can't explain that feeling. It will be along the lines of self discovery.

Reference to being ‘stubborn’ Yes somewhat you are. But people will often say we are being stubborn when all we are actually doing is being firmly honest to ourself, our beliefs and to who we really are. Don't ever let go that.

Reference to independence - Your mothers push for you to be independent. She wants you to be independent , but I don't think she really ever taught you how. I feel that she has done pretty much everything for you. Not because you can't do it, but because she felt that you couldn't. So subconsciously you have built up that belief that you can't. Vanessa, let me just say. You can! You know you are strong, you just don't realise how much.
The more I look into seeing you being independent , the more I vision you living in a group home situation, with other people with similar conditions or situations are you are thriving there. You are happy, you are smiling and are surrounded by brightness and your aura is beautiful.
This is because you would be surrounded by people who understand, that won't judge you, that except you and are willing to support you.

Your dream - My interpretation is going to seem as bit weird at first because of the sexual nature of it. But then will make sense.
The two girls in your dream. They are your mother and sister. The guy looking at you is your male friend. The guys you sleep with first and then leave to watch you on camera are they represent your desire for love and acceptance. Now, the guys are present in your dream because it's telling you that the love and acceptance you desire is out there. They then watch it on camera because you will find it and then you will capture it.
Your mother and sister. That represents your mothers hold on you and your desire for her to accept you the way she does your sister.
The guy in your dream - I really had to dig deep with this.
*i was dreaming that I wanted a relationship with him
*but I was just playing the part of a **** buddy
These two link in with your past life history with him back in medieval times. I felt last night that it wasn't a good situation for yourself back then, but because of him. I felt he was not a very nice person at all. In your past life with he was someone you loved, you may or may not have been in a relationship with him I'm not sure, but you loved him. Now you were just his **** buddy in your dream because of something sexual in nature that he did in your past life together. I'm not sure what though, but it hurt you. Now it could be that he just used you for sex, but you always wanted more, it could be that you were in a relationship and he cheated on you. Maybe he was gay. Don't wanna write this next bit, but need too, or there is the possibility he violated you sexually some way.
*and then I decided to forget about him so I ****ed these two girls and guys
This represents you knowing that you need to let go of of your desire for him. Now you go **** the guys because it's showing you wanting to get that love and acceptance. The girls, as I explained before.
*but inside I was still empty and thought that I couldn't live like this and then i woke up
This represents the two girls and your male friend. The emptiness is basically telling you that you are running back to the wrong people and a situation where subconsciously you are comfortable.
*wait hang on I also thought i was pregnant to him
*and the other guys also you know could have been the father but i wanted it to be him
Now these two and the fact your dream was sexual in nature is because this dream is about reproduction and rebirth. Your life honey is not going to begin again until to let go of this male friend, your mother's hold on you and your thinking you can't manage without her.

Now I wrote denial as one of the things that is holding back and I feel you’re not going to that I wrote this but I've need to be completely honest with you.. But, there were a few things you wrote last night that have me saying this. You are in denial with some things honey, until to see it as part of your problems, you are not going to get your desired outcome and it's will continue to have a hold on you.
*I dont care about my past it has no hold on me
It has a very strong hold on you Vanessa a lot more than you realise or want accept.
I wrote last night
*I'm feeling your hurt, your confusion, the anxiety of it all
You responded
*I am okay believe me
This is another part of the denial, but I get that though. I suffer similar things to you and at times have felt wonderful and thought that I'd overcome things. When really all I did was put up a barrier and blocked it. This is what you are doing honey.
I commented last night
*There is a lot more to your story isn't there?
and you responded
*Yeah but that doesn't matter
I felt you were quite firm with your response, now with that I feel that you are quite confident that it doesn't matter , but there is something within that story/situation that does matter, not a great deal, but there is something with that needs to be addressed.

Going on now. You were telling me last night about doctors telling you you need intensive therapy and you agreed. You agreeing is great, it's shows you know the problems and want to address them which is where it all begins. Now they how ever can only treat and help you on a medical level. How ever all though you already know this, you need help and guidance on a spiritual level. This is where Matthew Greenwood can help. At the end of the day the choice is yours and I'm not going to ‘tell’ you to go see him. But I couldn't ‘urge’ you enough to do so. I have a very powerful feeling he is going to be very beneficial to for you. Again choice is yours!

Next thing I'm writing down for you will be three paragraphs.

Difficulty paying attention, paying attention, boredom, frustration, aggression. Not knowing how to share or communicate your feelings. Feeling trapped. Feeling that you are forced to do what you don't want to do and what does not interest you.
Unable to cope. Great need need for control and predictability . Feeling unsafe, fearful, insecure and on guard. Suspicious of things and people. Afraid that if you change, everything will go wrong and fall apart. Blaming yourself for challenging and negative events which have happened to you or to people close to you.
Suppressed fear, anger, sadness or traumas which suddenly surface. The triggers are often connected to past traumas, especially those in childhood. Feeling weak, stressed, undermined. Feeling attacked, criticised, pushed. Internal weakness. Overtired. Constant resistance and going against the grain. Belief that life is full of struggle and suffering.

Okay Vanessa now that you have read those paragraph, how much of this do you find relevant to yourself? Now I only the know the surface of your problems, but I feel these are very relevant. Not all, but most of them.
I'm not going to explain this yet as you already have a lot to absorb. But I strongly feel that with intensive therapy, a session with Matthew Greenwood and taking in the explanation of those paragraphs you are going fly honey. You will receive exactly what you are needing and wanting in your life and your truth pathway will then allow you to walk on it.

Sorry this has taken so long. I am a perfectionist and won't complete my readings until I know I've got it all.
Thank you Vanessa. Let me know honey if you are interested to hear the reasoning for those paragraphs. And I'll put it to paper for you.

Shine bright sweetly!

[healingme4me]

Are there parts that you agree with?

Did you know that I dress up like cat woman every year for halloween?

I'm not really sure what you're asking for, is it feedback?

I'm also unsure of the context in which this message came to you.

From what you've written I will say it is broad general advice, it may or may not fit with you, but if there is a monetary transaction going on with this advice in anyway I would recommend extreme caution.

[divine1966]

I went to a psychic once and surely had to pay for it. Things she said were either too generic and didn't require much insight or were plain wrong. Don't pay for it. If it's free that's ok for fun but IMHO I wouldn't take it seriously

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[healingme4me]

Yep...i was going to get married. Live near a river and have 2 kids. Yep. There's tons of rivers around here. I mean how close to the river would be interesting to hear. I have 3! Way off!

Some of these things sound generic. Get a cat. A pet. That's nothing unusual.

You are connected to a man from a past life, medevil times, no less. That's a popular era.

You are feeling unheard by your mom. So you know how common mothers are referred to as controlling? It's a generalization of women as far as I see outside this forum.

There's nothing unusual about seeking your spiritual identity. Use caution is my own advice.

[divine1966]

My mom talked to a psychic At a party once and was told "your daughter is getting married soon". That was 15 years ago and I am only now getting married. Maybe 15 years was soon lol



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[hannabee]

Scammer trying to get your money! Please be careful and don't fall for it! Big hug. P.S. I went to one once...ONCE...cause she was really full of b.s. and I think they all are!!!!

[black-roses]

There was no money going through this she just started talking to me. She is completely wrong about my mother and I agree this advice is to general anyone could make that up and some of it could just be made on assumptations of appearance. After this has happened it made me reelevate my beliefs and now I believe a majority of psychics are full of **** if not all. Oh well, I learnt a new lesson I suppose not to be so believing of what everyone says

[divine1966]

There is intent of money transaction because there is no other benefit for a total stranger to keep telling you things. She tells you to go see Mathew Greenwood. And she tells you that therapy isn't enough for you and you need spiritual healing by this Mathew guy. They are on this together. It's very clear what's this about. Scamming for money. Block her.

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Good for you.

Some people might think this is harmless, but I think it can potentially be harmful if people base life decisions on this 'advice'.

[seeker1950]

I was a vendor , with my art, at a couple of major psychic fairs. I did make a lot of money (tho my art has nothing to do with psychic phenomena). The thing that turned me off was the psychic "readers" in the booths on each side of me. They basically said the SAME THINGS to everyone paying them money for their "insights." Mostly, these customers were desperate people, often in tears by the end of the readings. The psychics are charlatans. It's a scam. NO ONE knows better than you yourself what your future holds . Don't be sucked in!

[black-roses]

I guess it is a good thing I stopped believing in these psychics. No I told her I already had a theta healer that does spiritual healing I don't need to see this Matthew guy and she's kind of just left me alone