I don't want to age

You know, the recent generations are lucky in the sense that we have a close relationship with our inner childhood. By watching our favorite childhood shows, current cartoon/anime shows, and playing video games from each decade, we become attached to what was without the judgment from others. People fail in shaming us because we, nerds and geeks, are the majority now. The downside? We are given the terrifying and sudden concept of getting older. Instead of that gradual crawl, we have flashed the word "adulthood". Adulthood happens and will continue to happen as we continue our journey.

After that, the thought of aging is scary. I fear it too. I stared in the mirror today and sighed from mixed emotions. I do not have any real signs of aging unlike people around me, which is a blessing. Random strangers often think I am 5-10 years younger, but I know that may not last.

My the female friends and acquaintances I knew since elementary school all developed wrinkles (like crows feet) on their faces due to things like sun damage and stress. And they are stressed for good reasons! One being the fact they are mothers to children of their own. Which is part of my point. The sad reality my years as a youth are now fading memories, and the expectations for marriage and children are at the forefront of my mind. And the anxiety attacks suck.

As people older than me say; I have time. And they are right. But life and time are like a roll of toilet paper: In the beginning, you have a lot, but then it goes faster and faster until you are left with none.

A lady in her seventies back in 2009 showed me that quote, and I kept it in my mind ever since. Basically, when you are a child, an entire summer feels like forever. Nowadays, the season changes within a blink of an eye. Even in the south, where the heat drags on.

So, that is my opinion and observations on growing older. I think a big part of our anxiety is that we want to accomplish the same goals as those of before us, but with the freedoms we have now we are struggling to find our way. Though I do hear from 30-somethings that life seems to straighten out in those years, so I am looking forward to that.

Edit: I understand your fear of not being attractive at age 30, but men hit their prime in physical appearance then. Also, who does not like older men anyway?

I am pretty attractive and happy at 50. Unfortunately we don't stay young forever but life goes on and you can't go against nature. As long as one is healthy I see no issues here

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Thanks for the replies. the suicidal feelings have subsided for now, it kind of comes and goes. But I do feel very limited by my age in my ability to enjoy life and have a positive self image.

Yes I understand not everyone will have the same experience as me, because not everyone seeks the same things I am seeking in life. I am talking mainly about self image and dating.

28 is wonderful age for dating. So many options. Why don't you start?

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